im looking for a bl novel that i want to read again but forgot the title of the book. One of the first scene is a school staff(probably a school doctor) found a bruised up guy laying on a pile garbage on his way home, taking pity to the guy he carries the guy and bandage him up blablabla the guy fall in love with him because he never felt warm kindness resulting to a an obsessive love towards his savior. the uke is the doctor, his step dad is crazy in love with the uke's dead father and seeing the uke look like his father he tried to brainwash uke with his father's memorise(?). The uke in this story only wanted to be free but his liver(seme) is scared that the uke is going to leave him so trap the uke in his room chained up. The seme is a second master to a mafia family. Is a sadist, yandere and shows love by giving his lover pain. In his childhood his mother was very harsh to him so hard, but he thought it's just how they show love. So all in all this book is about sadist, rape, BDSM, yaoi, mafia and etc.