I call it a writing project but it's a little journal like in nature. HDHP means Hundred Day Happiness Project.
Spoiler: Post #15 (Update 14 Sep) Spoiler: Storm (source) Prompt: An old woman watching the rain while remembering her youth (by @Bielt ) Thunderous roars Madly flying past Raging and bold Spirited and vigorous A sudden storm Catching my breath away But ever so short lived My first love A story long past Of passionate times Of two youths in love With nothing else but love But that is just a memory How time have changed Bones tired and weary Hair of white and grey Our feet no longer strong Our dance no longer feverish Our flames no longer burning Our love no longer roaring All that's left is a small trickle A rainbow in the sky A field full of life A house weathered by storm A home strengthened by storm Spoiler: Inheritance of Winter (source) Prompt by @Osamaru My dearly beloved Please grow strong Solid and gallant wings To fly wherever you want My dearly beloved Please grow gracefully Reverberant sound, exquisite songs To be heard even in the farthest lands My dearly beloved Please grow kind Helping hand in hand Through the harsh winter My dearly beloved Please grow up I cannot be with you long But I hope you will carry on My dearly beloved I love you forever and always This overflowing warmth I hope you can feel it too Spoiler: Birth of Spring (source) Prompt by @Osamaru The scary night has passed Of chilling wind and creeping snow Of blinding white and solitude Of being saved by your arms Was it scary for you too Are you frightened stiff Have you gone cold from fear The storm have stopped now, don't you worry Thank you for protecting me I won't let you worry I won't let you be sad I won't let you be sorry I'll grow strong and full of grace I'll grow up warm and kind Just as you were with me I love you forever and always Spoiler: My Way (source) It's me against the world So I have to be tough Tough to those under Tough to those above Especially, tough to myself What a tiring way of living Surrounded by hostiles Angry faces and backbites But you'll preservere Because a leader must be hated What an ugly way of living Talk before you're talked Hurt so you're not hurt Persuade and manipulate All for the sake of your goal What a bloody way of living Blame the whole world For pushing her away When she's the one pushing In the end, what's left? Spoiler: Tree (source) I don my festive lights Among the celebrations Smiles of families gathered Shining bright for the humans While choking and barely alive How can you smile so bright While others are suffering How can you laugh so loud Just because you can't hear Just because I'm not you I haven't chosen this To be sacrificed To be the one in pain For the happiness of others I was never given the choice Amidst all these cheers The feast, the lights The hymns praising the Lord I can only shed silent tears Counting my final days - - - Author note: This is actually part of my Christmas themed poems orz Spoiler: Flame (source) It was not my intention to call To shine, to allure, to seduce To bring you any warmth All the way to you deathbed I am just here, waiting Waiting for all this to end Waiting for the guilt to disappear Waiting for a blameless life But all is for naught And one by one they come Seeking warmth I dont intend to give Seeking light I dont intend to have Is the fault still mine to bear? - - - If my warmth invites If my beauty endangers If my smile erases Then should I end it all? What's the use of kindness If all it brings is misery What's the use of a life If all it brings is disaster - - - The rose by nature has thorns The flame by nature burns hot It is the natural way of the world For the beauty to protect themselves For me to be guarded by death It may not be my sin It might not be my fault But the lives lost won't return And the wails of those left echoes Along with their cries of vengeance - - - I am powerless and incapable The only way I can protect myself Annihilating those who hold me Eradicating those who embrace A flame by nature burns hot But it contains no warmth Neither friends nor foes Only the curse of solitude Spoiler: Dance to the chains (source) Never satisfied with what you have Every little faults magnified Like shackles binding tightly Taking away your freedom But you would never be free The shackles will never leave Weighing down as you walk A cripple with limited movements Listen to the music Count your blessings Let your body move and dance away The shackles hinder nothing For you would never be free The shackles will never leave So enjoy the clinks of the chain Let it be part of the music Dance to the chains Let yourself be free Unlimited, unbound Full of life and spirit Spoiler: Dance to the Chains (2) (source) You would never be satisfied with what you have Every little faults magnified Yet the blessings goes uncounted You're bound and shackled In your self-created prison But you would never be free The shackles will never leave So forget about the weights About the cold metal bind Dance the thoughts away the cuffs hinders nothing the chains mean nothing The restrain still exist The faults won't go away But you can be free You can choose to dance Enjoy the clinks of the chain Let it be part of the music Not limited and bound By shackles you create By the wrongs and errors Count your blessings Listen to the music Let yourself dance away Spoiler: I Love You (source) I don't say I love you out of reflex I say it to convince myself I'll feel that way for you That is my greatest promise I don't say I love you out of habit I say it out of responsibility I'll continue feeling that way To uphold my sacred promise I don't say I love you out of obligation I say it to show you my dedication Because I chose you as you did me Tie the bond of our promise I don't say I love you out of love I say it as my commitment Because love is fleeting While our promise is everlasting Spoiler: Edelweiss (source) Flower on a mountain Blooming amidst harshness Cold and barren land Only emphasizes its beauty Delicate white petals Among the jagged rocks Narrow paths steep cliffs Danger at every step Show me your will and strength Your resolve and determination Show me what I mean to you Only then will I say yes This is my test of love My show of will My efforts for you My flower on a mountain Please accept my offering My embodiment of love Please say you love me I want to make you mine Delicate beauty Unparalleled strength My lovely edelweiss My heart is captivated Flower on a mountain Please say you love me too I'm not able to obtain it But I had hoped to obtain you Lovely edelweiss Don't take him away I am his and he is mine Please bring him back to me If I'm your flower You are my mountain I'm yours and you are mine Only because of you I'm alive How can we be together If you don't return How can you say you love me Then leave me behind A fool is what you are I don't need a flower I don't need a mountain I only needed you Throughout all this time Spoiler: Fireweed (source) Loud explosion, smell of burning Charred remains of war remaining Left behind, broken and abused Abandoned, nothing could be used But we will see to it The land the humans left Forgotten and given up on We will tend the crying soil Standing tall in the charred remains Swaying by the moutain wind The land of war, we are saving Back to mother nature's caring Until it's brimmimg with beauty again Bright green leaves and soft purple petals Leaving behind old memories of pain and grief Renewing it with warm sights and gentle smiles Spoiler: Well Intentioned (source) An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth If you're prepared to pull the trigger Don't be surprised if someone else too Hurt and sorrow breeds revenge Why do you reap so much pain Why do you choose to harm Put yourself in their shoes How it feels to be the ones hurt If you can't sympathize, I'll help you out The lives ruined, the relations broken The tears shed, the hearts bled Even if it's petty, I'll show you your crimes An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth The sufferings of the weak and lesser The damage they had, the hurt they felt I'll make sure you feel it too - - - Author note: I dont want the title to be malice (the theme) because that would spoil the ending right I wanted to name it ill help you out, or well intention revenge but those are too long I wanted empathy, but the sarcasm might be missed Spoiler: Against the Thunder (source) Today the rain came again Bringing with it harsh flurries Carrying with it fear and sorrow Today the thunder came again Bringing with it terrifying memories Carrying with it haunting despair No more shall we be under its rule No more shall we cower in hiding For the time of our wish and desire No longer will we be pushed down No longer will we cower in fear For our time of vengeance We have prepared and prepared We have armed ourselves Together we will fight For revenge of our brothers For protection of our young Together we will rise We don our masks of bravery We bear our swords of steel Against the fear, against the despair But our bravery is foolish and naive But our display of vigor for naught Steel will not win against thunder The target of nature's attacks It's uncontained wrath we don't deserve It's roaring strike we can't defend Even our valiant show of power Empty promises of what we don't have Broken hopes of what we won't have Tonight is another sleepless night - - - Spoiler: Author note The prompt is from @Bielt : The moist earth greedly drinks our blood, And the darkening skies threatens our sanity.. We hurdle closer to escape the cold as the last of the embers starts to die. Trying to find any feeling of protection we hide between the trenches dung on the half frozen soil. The wind resounds with the sounds of thunder, And soon the black rain starts to fall again. But what we fear more is not the black rain.. .. No.. It's the idea that we may never leave this place... Like our brothers haven't.." Your theme is {Thunder and Steel} Spoiler: Boring (source) Pretending to be pleased Acting like you're pissed Creating a distorted perfection Isn't it boring? Following a path society laid Donning a mask for others' sake Dancing a tune of someone else Isn't it boring? Saying words you don't mean Expressing emotions you don't feel Doing actions you don't care Isn't it boring? Chasing goals you don't want Living a life you don't feel alive Being something you aren't Aren't you boring? - - - Doing actions you don't care Chasing goals you don't want Living a life you don't feel alive Isn't it boring? Following a path society laid Donning a mask for others' sake Dancing a tune of someone else Aren't you boring? - - - Pretending to be pleased Acting like you're pissed Creating a distorted perfection Isn't it boring? Saying words you don't mean Expressing emotions you don't feel Being something you aren't Aren't you boring? Spoiler: Respect (source) My respect for you is built upon my mistakes That you would accept and bring us up My trust in you is built from your actions That you would never abandon us your team My awe of you is found by your intimacy That you would be friends and not just mates My respect for you is built from my mistakes That you are a leader I did not expect to respect But you have earned it by time But you have earned it by effort But you have earned it by right Because my respect for you is built step by step Spoiler: Childish (source) Spoon-feed Is a priviledge of babies Is a priviledge of kids You should be ashamed An adult shouting loudly To be spoon-fed It's disgraceful That you throw a fit To be spoon-fed When people don't come With the spoon You shriek and cry Like a 5 years old kid Like a 2 month old baby Like a child you are Spoiler: Mirror (source) The mirror on the wall Wont show the fairest of them all But itll be fair and true Revealing the actual you Reflecting what it sees Without trying to appease Although it causes displeasure You should use it as a measure Because the mirror is true and fair Displaying all without flair The mirror on the wall Unfazed it stands tall It will return the what is Even if that is a miss It wont show what you wished Even if your fists unleashed It will continue doing the same Without intending to shame or flame Even if you try to be a steerer Life will continue to be a mirror Spoiler: Flawed (source) I'm a bundle of flaws I know I'm not always right But that's okay Every mistake is a learning Every failure is a success And that's okay I acknowledge my shortcomings I realize my wrongs But that's okay Humans aren't perfect I'm a bundle of flaws And that's okay Spoiler: The Messenger of The Mirror (source) The mirror is true and fair It reflects what it sees Nothing more, nothing less A solid existence Unmoved by their person The messenger of the mirror Is true and fair He returns what is Not more, not less Objective in its judgement Unmoved by emotions - - - No one likes the truth How different it is From our hopes and dreams From our imaginations From our expectations Everyone is blindsided To their own strengths To their own flaws So I make sure to help Reflect back what others see Because human is defined By their people Our self-definition is incomplete Without external inputs Without societies views And I have taken upon me The role as messenger of the mirror To reflect what I see To show what people felt To act how they deserve They don't deserve better They don't deserve worse They deserve the truth So they can see their blindsides Through the mirror's reflection Spoiler: The Monster Within (source) Today was a good day There has never been any good day Everyone smiled in the end Courtesy smiles, forced laughs They told me I did well While laughing behind my back I wonder if it's all true Trust your heart, it's never real Reassure me I'm good enough There's never an enough Please tell me it'll be okay You know you doubt it yourself Chase away these dark thoughts But they're part of the real you Don't let me drown in darkness The only thing that's true The shadow, my only friend Spoiler: The Brightest Star (source) Loud laughs and big smiles Bright jokes and charming performances Always shining your brightest Being a star is a tough job You have to always inspire joy That's how you bestow happiness Even if you're dissatisfied Even if you're unhappy Even when it's all fake Even at your own expense Even if it erodes your heart Even when it eats you up inside Keep the mask on The smile big, the laugh loud You have to always twinkle Until you can't anymore Don't let people know your thoughts Your feelings, your self You're not yours, you're theirs You're not you, only their desires A loud laugh, a big smile A pretty doll, an empty husk A star for their enjoyment There was never a you Spoiler: Dont Indulge the Monkey Voice (source) Disappeared once lost And nowhere to be found Yet it lingers closely A trick of the mind Confused I looked back Confused I looked forward Talking and listening Yet no answers were found Only decisions to be made Within I still hoped Inside I was still stuck Not keeping up with the change Wondering of the lost and gone Trapped in a mirror, looking on The monkey called The monkey dragged The mind spiraled A dive to the waters below Jump in and feel the wind Jump in and feel the rush Water breaking and drowning An acceptance like no other The still and cold water The serene and quite water Stay and look upon the light Streaks upon the blue Swaying gently in a dance Swaying slowly in a trance As time stops still Looking upon, unmoving Spoiler: Good (source) No matter what life gives, the fact that you're not alone all amounts to something. LIfe is full of curveballs, bad times, good times, and that's just how life is. But in all of them there's good. If you pick and choose and try to look hard enough there's good. If there's nothing else, the fact that there's someone, whether you can see them or not, is all the good you need. Spoiler: Woman (source) Your cherished person is a woman The sister you grew up with Your protector and playmate Your important person is a woman The mother who cared for you When you were weak and feeble Your beloved is a woman The wife who understands you Supports you and loves you Your treasure is a woman The daughter you wish to protect Against all harms and fears But why can't you see They're not weak but they need protection Because the world is full of dangers Lurking predators bringing sorrows Worse than death itself But why can't they see Spoiler: Rebirth (source) I am pure I am bright I am amicable Happiness and smiles I am rule abiding I am courageous I am calm and collected And that is Me That's how it's always been And will always be Because I'm bound by Me The one in their eyes I can't be brittle Can't be a crybaby Can't be stressed Bad at time management Can't be adventurous Can't be controversial Can't be the truth I want it all to end Let me be me Let me be free Let me have a chance To be reborn An entirely new surrounding A fully different set of people Where the expectations aren't set And I can explore what I want to be Spoiler: Turning Leaves (source) Red leaves burn bright Falling freely in the sky Bittersweet memories left behind As the leaves fall in the autumn sky When we meet, when we laughed All that drama when we fight and cry Cast aside on the ground Trampled by carefree children While their excitement erupts Towards new memories and new beginnings New drama, fun, sad moments in the making New friends, new love, new memories Recounting. Recalling. Ruminating. Nostalgic memories burn alight Falling slowly in the sky Since when did we lose that excitement Since when are we stuck falling Stagnant and still, calm and dull Waiting for this autumn to pass While the children run and laugh Here we are, with quiet worries Even after the seasons flowed and turned Because the years have passed What was once beautiful incidents Are only burdens for this separation Hesitating. Holding back. Hoping. Waiting to turn over a new leaf
OMG Is Pyoo alive?? Is she actually writing more poems now? Spoiler: Post #16 (Update 23 Jan) Spoiler: Safe (source) Like a mirror, you show what people seek Like a mirror, you show what people bring Like a mirror, you don't show yourself But a mirror is a brittle and fragile You keep your heart in a locked box Encased in pretty jewels like a treasure Tightly, with no key to open it Because it's the safest way you know But you won't know it is dying Withering from lack of air Crippling from lack of space Shrinking from lack of sun Until it is a remnant of its former self Decayed withered rotten moldy Crumbles of dried and hardened old No longer the thing treasured - - - Author Note: A Reply to @Nefasdetestasti 's Mask Spoiler: Mirror (2) (source)(source)(source) The joy of the good The nightmare of the bad The courier of karma That is who I am The embodiment of revenge The bringer of consequence The messenger of the mirror That is what I am A knowing saint and an intentional sinner Acting as if I'm the angel of judgement Under the guise of a jury and executioner Delivering just and fair punishment Drunk in my self-assigned role Misconceptions of power When all other people saw Was childish retaliation - - - A mirror is clear and transparent Reflecting back anything Returning reality as it is But once it's doused in blank It's clouded and tainted With cracks running over it Its eyes are foggy and grayed Its heart is smeared Its actions no longer pure Filled with hurt and pain Amassing wrath and fury Lashing out malice and hostility Dark emotions and thoughts Slowly seeps in the cracks Like smoke and ashes No longer objective or unassuming No longer uninvolved and distant No longer reflects the truth - - - A kind person is always kind A bad person is always bad A mirror should reflect both But its front has been colored black A mirror that's already broken Can no longer pretend it's right A mirror which doesn't reflect Can no longer play its part I who have lost my sight I who have lost my identity Can no longer claim to be The messenger of the mirror A title long obsolete Hung on to, desperately When the essence is discarded When my eyes are shrouded Then I will shed my skin The dark veil that I wear My masks and my scars My wrath and malice The fake identity I put forth The self that I clung to As justification for my act When all it is, childish retaliation Spoiler: Winter Icons 2019 (sources) Spoiler: Chicken previously published in Post #14 Spoiler: Santa previously published in Post #14 Spoiler: Tree previously published in Post #15 Spoiler: Gift Box #1 (source) Like walking to a dark alley The unknown is to be feared Anxiety and restlessness An unseen monster lurking hidden As you gear up, ready to defend But why must it be so Like opening a present A mystery is to be enjoyed Excitement and anticipation The promise and hope of delight Amicable giggles and chuckles A welcoming and open atmosphere Neither sword nor gun weilded Neither contempt nor terror held No righteous violence enacted Only the exchange of gifts From a stranger to another To open paths previously untold Spoiler: Blue Bow (source) The bow tie you kept wearing The tag on your house keys The ribbon around my gift The braided bracelet we share My cherished blue ribbons Signifying our silent passion Unbreakable despite protest Amidts the dissent and objections Strong even though it's quiet Because our love is real Because our love is pure Because our love is ours No one else can dictate Whether it is immoral Unnatural, sinful taboo This bond is meant to be Our love is not wrong And we are also human - - - Author note: the blue bow is used by the community as a sign for BL readers, so I made this poem to alude to gay relationships Spoiler: Santa Hat (source) Oh innocent children Oh gullible children Listen to the rambles Of this red clothed grandpa Of this white haired old man Don't believe in the adults Whose words only for their own benefits A mythical santa bearing gifts A toy for the good, a coal for the bad Just the grown-up's control mechanism I can listen to your wishes But it doesn't matter what you do Whether you're good or not this year The stories are just fairytales Because I'm just a normal man I can only continue to be an adult Who will continue this farce Give you hope no matter how fleeting Maintain the lie you dearly cherish And put on my bearded red hat Spoiler: Bells (source) Cacophonic clangs Quiet echoes of the chime Hidden in the shadows Backbiters and gossipers When the bells ring loudly Whose sounds pains the ears Cowardly behind your back As you walk on clueless What you don't see doesn't exist What you don't hear is not said Ignorance is bliss they say It was better when I didn't know When I am sneered and disparaged When the music is reverberated Disappointingly behind my back As I continue my stride uncaring Ring louder if you have the audacity Come at me if you have the nerve You who can only ring your bells I will fight you head on Spoiler: Snowflakes (source) A drop in the ocean, one amongst all Unrecognizable white masses But if you look closely You'd notice their differences Stellar crystals, dendrites and plates With their own beauty and shine We celebrate their individualities So why can't we recognize our own Each flakes unique and special But ultimately all the same snow Working together to blanket the earth Covering each others blank spots Just like humans and their differences Race, color, culture, skill, attitude, wealth So why can't we tolerate our own Cooperation just a pipe dream Spoiler: Candy Cane (source) It is that one special time The annual celebrations When white and red candy Freely distributed in the city It is that one cherished occassion Our annual candy consumption A party allowed even for us The ones who have nothing It is that one blessed moment When people remember us Easing their heart's grief by giving Yet our daily life will remain the same Spoiler: Ornaments (source) Bright colors and shiny glitter Light to hold and easy to hang Full outside but hollow inside One of many of the same things Only used once for display To be discarded after the season passed Replaced with newer ones next time A temporary bauble, is that my future? To sit pretty and get dolled up To learn how to decorate myself To spread my charm and appeal But all that will only last a moment When the chase no longer exciting When I am no longer intriguing When he is no longer appeased When there is someone else I will be left as an ornament A decoration of the house An accessory to carry around To beautify your false appearance Bright colors and shiny glitter Light to hold and easy to hang One inconsequential garnish in life Whose only purpose is as frills Spoiler: Wreath (source) The babe cries loudly As family gather round Its parents breathe in relief At the start of a new life The bell chimes midnight As family gather round Holding candle-topped cake Celebrating another year passed Couples huddled close As family gather round Witnessing the holy vows Exchanged between two souls Suspense and tension As family gather round Anxiously awaiting news To welcome its newest A moment of merriment As family gather round Children cheer in joy Opening Santa's gifts A solemn and grave event As family gather round In support and comfort At an end of one circle of life And the circle will turn once more Spoiler: Snowman (source) A little girl by the window Looking outside at the snow At the snowman with carrot nose Thinking how cold it must be An act of kindness and naivety She brought her new friend home To ease it of its sufferings Bringing it closer to the hearth An act of goodwill and ignorance An innocent knife brings warmth From escaping heat of blood spilled Leaving behind cold corpses in its foolishness Pleasing oneself while acting selfless Nobleness and righteousness is hipocrisy Unless supported with sufficient effort Good intention is never enough Spoiler: Candles (source) Looking at each other's eyes Until the small flicker burned out Leaving behind a moonless night As we huddle around the fire's remains While surrounded by the festival lights Bulks of excess scrapped the next day A wasteful luxury to create an illusion A bright atmosphere without any darkness This is simply our reality Insignificant and disregarded One of the many candle makers Who worked tirelessly for paltry sum To afford only thin uncolored candles The barest necessity of practical purpose To illuminate the lightless days Used to its utmost, until its last burn Who am I to wish for light Who am I to wish for change Looking at each other's eyes Until the small flicker burned out Spoiler: Gift Box 2 (source) Blessed with loving family Despite the occassional fights Blessed with great friends Who stuck with you whenever Blessed with inspiring leader An example for your future self Blessed with patient teachers Who provides generous guidances Blessed with various opportunites Which allows you to grow Blessed with joyous moments A respite during the climb Blessed with the best gift - life Count your overflowing blessings So much that your heart is always full So much that your gratitude is limitless So much that you can't help but radiate That you can't help but share kindness Spoiler: Mistletoe (source) Sorry if you don't like it It's just that, you know The kiss under a mistletoe We need to carry on tradition Sorry if you don't like it I thought it was obvious I thought you knew what it meant To have a pair under the leaves Sorry if you don't like it It is just how it always been It wasn't my choice or decision It is just the way it is It is our custom, our culture To steal a kiss under the mistletoe To respect the symbol of love To celebrate life and its evergreen That is your justifications But it's not fine to follow tradition If it's detrimental to others You're rationalizing your creepiness You're just using it as an excuse I never said it's ok Never signalled I want it Regardless of the common Frankly, that's no excuse Even if I know of the rituals Just because I'm standing Doesn't mean I'm inviting Frankly, that's no excuse You can't pretend ignorance You can't act as if blameless Your action wasn't welcomed Frankly, there's no excuse Spoiler: Penguin (Female) (source) Quickly before hunger strikes Quickly before the predators come Quickly before her child is lost Quickly she must find food for my family Because a mother is strong A mother is unbeatable and fierce When she thinks of her fuzzy chick The empress turns into a huntress Spoiler: Penguin (Male) (source) In this cold land, we stand Overlooking the grand blue Waiting for the sea of freedom In huddled warmth, we stand Protecting the treasured life Waiting for the long awaited baby In everyday hunger, we stand Toughening our willpower Waiting for the mother's meal As each second tick As each moment blink Waiting for time to pass Spoiler: Ringing (source) Tring, tring A faint bell chime My ears perked up Enjoying its tune Searching for its source Tring, tring Its a joyful rhythm Sounding a small run Leaps of excitement Ringing an eager song Tring, tring The bell from my dearest A wondorous tune Reminding me of our moments Making me forget all around Spoiler: Phoradendron (source) Amidst the lifeless soil Barren snow covered land Little green leaves sticked out Flaunting its vivacity and vitality The medicine of life and fertility Despite that it sucks away The life of its host The parasite leeching off The thief of the tree Mistletoe Spoiler: Don't (source) People will think what they want to think They will say what they want to say It matters not what you do If you can't change it, If you can't control it, Don't burden yourself with it Don't seek things that will never come Everything is ultimately only temporary Your job, your peers and your emotions Keep only those that are worth it You don't need to please everyone Especially those who doesn't seek to understand Keep only those who are worth it Don't keep things that won't give you joy Spoiler: Expectations (source) Quarter life crisis A millennial invention When we realize reality sucks The age of information and social comparison Seeing highlight reels of people's lives Ignorant of what happens behind the scenes Holding to inflated expectations Vivid images of success Nonexistent in this bleak, grey life Get a good school, university, and job Married by 25, manager by 30 Everyday comparing ourselves to our peers We were taught to compete Our self-worth judged externally Every time comparing our lows to their highs. Nothing in life is perfect No one person is ideal Neither me, nor you Life isn't a competition Life isn't a race Life isn't chasing perfection Life is a journey of growth An adventure to be enjoyed In the end, what is it that truly matters Spoiler: Hanging On (source) At the last one, a little, it dies Amidst perpetually failing tries I couldn't give your prize and rise An eternity filled with cries You went away to chase the skies As if it has all been lies I'll remain here motionless Tired, broken and hopeless Filled with distress I can't express Watching you with your success As I remain under oppress For I am one without finesse Spoiler: Ridiculous: Uninspired (source) I was uninspired from ice's rhyme It felt likes lines and lines of crime (?) The story was one I don't wanna write And I felt like I should not be here and fight Spoiler: Emotional (source) Like a child sulking in my inabilities A child will cry alongside you But I lack the emotional capacity for that I have never been one with a lot of emotions Don't expect me to be able to deal with them Whether my own or others Spoiler: Time (source) Time is a continuous stream. Like a river it flows, from the past to the future, in one long line. The line can be filled with rocks or it can curve around before proceeding, but it will simply move as a flow. Yet there is a boundary on it that we can't help but acknowledge. A boundary between now, and before. Between the past, and the present. Between what can be changed and not. Spoiler: Night (source) Gaze upon the starry sky The night shines so bright Yet you're bogged down Too focused on its darkness Spoiler: My Monster (source) The things I can't show My monsters and fears Needless worries Emotions unfiltered The monsters inside But they're what makes it fun Then I'm just an empty husk A blank face Those background people artists don't care to draw A part of the crowd Or not even, not part of them Or part of us Just parted from and parted with Just isolated Spoiler: My Problem (source) I realize it. I recognize it. Yet I cant do anything about it. I overthink and over complicate. Spoiler: Dazed (source) Walking in a daze Living in a dream Delusions of success Trapped in your illusions Where are you going? Spoiler: Red (source) Red Your color The color of anger Of fire of blazes Of passion Of energy Of love You're apathetic Yet sweet Caring You can't help but care And wallow in anger when you're disappointed But you're red A passionate red Spoiler: Ashes (source) Why cry after burning it. It would be no more but ashes by then Don't shed your tears for the wind But I'll be here, to wipe them away You try to bury your memories And burn all the items you shared But you still cry When it's already nothing but ashes Don't shed your tears for the wind But I'll be here, to wipe them away Spoiler: Sun (source) And even at night, the sun still won't forget to shine Spoiler: Magic (source) Do you believe in magic? "I do!" I shouted from the top of my lungs "I do!" I shouted, hoping for a miracle Desperately I hoped in my heart Spoiler: Shells (source) Pretty cases Of pretty jewels Pretty shells Of pretty pearls Beautiful shield Protecting soundly Will never yield Will fight on bravely Spoiler: Guarded (source) Hidden away Kept at bay Safe from fears Free from tears Empty faces Void cases Constantly changing Multiples of nothing Spoiler: Beauty (source) Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder Your worth is in the eyes of others Careful it might make you smothered When truths are only said by mothers When you are at a height and in their sight You're loved with all their might But a star is only a star when its bright Otherwise its engulfed by the dark night Spoiler: Forlorn (source) The echoes in my head makes me sore The thoughts in my heart crumbles my core Doubts and insecurities, a pitiable girl forlorn Carrying on with tattered soul weary and worn Spoiler: Bridge (source) It takes years to build a steady birdge Each pillar and cable meticulously put Covered by tight sand and sturdy cement Each material and construction meaningful But even the most extraordinary structure Will breakdown if not maintained Will crumble when left alone Won't function when deserted Sometimes it is not wear and tear Other times it's a powerful explosion Decimate the path in one huge swoop Ending the relations instantly Even if it takes years to assemble Even if it was once strong and unbreakable Without consistent effort to preserve it No connection will last a lifetime Spoiler: Inspiration (source) The quiet trickle of rain The comfortable embrace of solitude Those who wish to be enemies of fate Who don the steel to fight the thunder The monster within filled with malice Our prideful self and my arrogance Lies ever so sweet just like honey A new love and sweet kisses Boundless, formless, infinite Inspiration is ever present Surrounding those who see them Around those who take up the pen Who makes the words travel Who create their forms To share their stories Of joys and sorrows Yet you claim of one With a glint in her eyes A glimmer on her hair Brimming with color Overflowing with emotions A dream brought to reality Amidst all and everything You have found your muse Gratitude is insufficient Towards this honor given Too high for its simple roots But adequate for its influence Inspiration is a seed Once lodged, it'll creep further in It'll burrow further down And change a barren land Into a meadow - - - The highest of honor given From simplest actions Towards which gratitude Is an insufficient expression Spoiler: Waiting for Spring (source) 16 springs have passed 14 more will pass In my pursuit of wizardry Sadly not by choice When will my spring come I've heard of its magic and splendor Of the promise of companionship Leading to the great union Waiting for flowers to bloom As the stories have told But my days continue on cold Constant at the status quo Except there was one change Spring did come as foretold With its ardor and glamour But it only came to my friend Why is life unfair, why is love unfair Is solitude my only choice Am I undeserving of company Am I fated for the Wizard life A defeated sigh from a mulling boy A scoff from his dear friend Crazy is not doing anything But expecting a change And you're crazy I shut him away from my mind Gloating about his first meeting His subsequent chats and dates The reaction towards the confession He's the lunatic one, madly in love Forgetting he was once like me Independent and solitary Part of the pack, fellow lone wolves What made him different now What was it that changed? Was it something he did? If so, what did he do? He seeked her out He asked her out While here I am waiting For a spring that won't arrive Well, I guess that's it I'm done with my self-pity I'm done being insane I'm done loitering around Spoiler: Strength (source) Don't let them string you along Don't let them say you are wrong Don't you ever hide and cower That is how you show power Make sure they hear what you say And trample everything in your way Shout until your voice is hoarse That is how you show force Until you get the respect you are due Isolation, proof your path is not askew Determination to go to that length That is how you show strength Until your heart is shattered Until your soul is battered Only your body left at the reign Because only a husk will remain Spoiler: Kill (source) I would be the devil's pawn for rain I would sacrifice myself for grain For the children to eat their fill I would, even if I have to kill A loud awakening bell On the night when I fell Is this the payment for my sins All the wrongs I have done since Spoiler: Problem Solved (source) Noisy kids, quite down Crying kids, shut up I shouted and shrieked aggravated Only to be met by their increasing intensity It needs to be a performance Ready for the masses One of grand celebrations Suitable for the public But the kids don't care About the people, the audience About any of the adults About anyone else but them So I did the one thing to shut them up Bribe them and cram them Let them suck candy all they want And let my performance a success Unconventional methods Uncanny solutions But I got what I wanted Then, problem solved Spoiler: Waiting for Spring (2) (source) The seeds laying underneath the soil Tucked in the earthen blanket Awaiting their time to rise and wake Animals sleeping in their burrows Hiding fron the creeping chill Anticipating the time to roam again Families huddling by their wood Counting the reserves kept from autumn Waiting for the warmth and greens We are united by our common desire A yearning for longer time with the sun A longing for days without worry To not count the remaining food To be in absolute abundance To afford being carefree again Spoiler: Memories (source) I call it memories, because that is what it is a recollection of the past and archive of the mind where thoughts lingers and feelings remains ready to resurface at the slightest call to reappear from a passing mention but it is what it is - events long done memories, of days long past Spoiler: Darkness (source) Amidst the loud fanfare The brilliant festive of joy There will always be shade Hidden away in the corner As the light gets brighter A shadow is cast stronger The deepest pit in my heart Has its loyal companion A ghost that always follows Whispering words of hate Devilish feelings of jealousy Thoughts of gloom and murk Darkness growing stronger Hidden away behind a cheer While my words are sweet When my face is full of smiles They say it's harder to have a friend Who is happy when you are successful Than one who will stay by your side And help when you're in need Spoiler: Xin the Devil (external link, 22 Jun 2020) The deity of art, the angel of beauty, why did you fall from the Heaven. Was it pity or was it passion, which drove you to your madness. Delirious mind, frenzied hand, you are a slave to your own muse. Deep fascination, frantic obsession, has changed you to a hellspawn. Xin the Devil trapped by his gift, where will you find salvation. Spoiler: Glimmer (lost external link, 22 Jun 2020) A sparkle, a shine, a glint and a twinkle Your presence glimmered like the moonlight across the lake A gleam, a glow, a flicker and a shimmer Your brilliance radiated like sunlight reflected on a diamond Spoiler: Fear (external link, 13 Oct 2020) Slithering around your legs Marking its presence on you Creeping slowly up your body Keeping you rigid and rooted Crawling across your torso Twisting your stomach Gripping your lungs Buckling your knees Tightening around your neck Strangling your thoughts away Robbing your mind blank Leaving nothing but itself As you descend the spiral of madness With vigilance as your guide With distrust as your knight With fear as your master Spoiler: Curley (external link, 28 Oct 2020) Him who left with a bang. The top guild's ex-leader, Curley. Him who left behind a legend. Of little goblins dyed red in blood. Him who left behind a history. Of the young critters' impossible feat. Without you here to lead them, What would your sugar babies do? Without you here to flex on them, What would us plebians see? Without you here with your crazy, Who would I hang around with? But you've set your sights on bigger goals On to more impossible feats and miracles You've determined to expand your reach On to more friends and sugar babies You've decided to shine on more lives On to let your sparkle light up the world ✨ Spoiler: News (Discord, 19 Nov 2020) A relic of the near past, now forgotten Deliverer of truth, investigator of secrets But what is left behind, only faux and hoax Will we ever reclaim the rustle of the scoop Spoiler: Write (Discord, 19 Nov 2020) Straights and curves, scribbles and scrawls. To capture the vast outside. To ensnare the wild imagination. Surrounded by walls as thin as paper. - - - Straights and curves, scribbles and scrawls A touch of ink travelling on the paper To capture the vast outside To ensnare the wild imagination Surrounded by walls a few inches wide Spoiler: Color (Discord, 19 Nov 2020) Bubbles of joy and sorrow, of warmth and cold Optimism and passion, trust and elegance Prism of light reveals your true self Complex and complicated, not a one-dimensional character Spoiler: Crippled (Discord, 23 Nov 2020) complacent and comfortable in our little desk and chair deaf and blind of the outside world naïve and innocent kind words for the ignorant lost and powerless crippled by your own carelessness Spoiler: Story: Mysteries below the Surface (Discord, 26 Nov 2020) Prompt: Mysteries below the Surface Challenge: No e Drum rolls for Sir Lord’s arrival On his podium, crying and shouting Looking for valiant warriors to bring back a young boy, Tom A tiny boy on his own shaking in fright Brown shirt and black pants With a maroon band on his arm Lost during his trip to Salty Coast Townfolks’ focus shifts to a crying mom With a haggard look and rattling body Worry painting this woman’s brows Praying with tiny, shaking sounds Sandra, hoping for a saviour To scour past dry sand To look past shallow foam To jump into cobalt mass A hush fills stifling air Pity and sorrow both But no champion in sight No knight, only an old man Sympathy on his cast A small child similar to his own For him, this man shall fight With Lord’s man-at-arms At dawn, Lord’s troop march With bold, daring townfolks Sandra’s plight in mind Old Man Brian’s last mission Storming through vicious land Struggling to find Sandra’s boy But all that is found Was an unsightly monstrosity Ghastly varmint roaming around Horrifying roar looms at littoral Quaking panic amongst champions Bar Old Man Brian, anxious for Tom Tiny Tom’s form in his conviction Sword in hand, Brian jab and thrust His fist shaking, his gasps haggard But a hazard cut down and slain Continuing his pursuit of Tom But nothing was found No body, no mark, nothing Only sad story for his frail mom A Warrior’s arrival With pomp and formality Carrying a slain mutant With a maroon band on its arm In dark of night, moms sniff Singing a song to younglings “My charming and virtuous child You might ask what horror is A suspicion rousing panic A shadow missing from nautical shallows A contour amidst shrouds of plantation A gloom that murks in corals and rocks I wish your days to lack this shock Without alarm or dismay Of any fright of imagination Nor worry for incarnations of night” Spoiler: Water (Discord, 1 Jan 2021) The coming and going of waves The trickle of rain The flow of rivers As my heart beats a lively melody As my vision widens hungrily As my breath brisk and heavy The spray of geyser The flush of drain The drums of rapids As my body rocks and sways To the rhythm of the whitewater Raises a fuss in my mind The drips of cascade The ripple of pond The calm of lake Even the simplest presence Brings about an unsettling chill Down into my deepest core Spoiler: Anxious 3 Jan 2021 What if a meteor fell on us right now What if a thunder came crashing down What if the rain floods the house What if the train ran out of its track What if the microwave blew up What if my building burn down What if my pen flew out of my hand What if I wear my shirt inside out What if I stutter during introductions What if I blank out mid-presentation Where is the line drawn Between the impossible and possible Between the hyperbole and realistic Between over-thinking and prudence Between crazy and normal Spoiler: My Buddy 4 Jan 2021 You eagerly bark to welcome me You excitedly yelp when we go out As am I when we spend time together You snuggle to me when I'm sad You comfort me when I'm lonely As would I when you need me You care when I'm sick You share my pains As did I when you are At your final days Spoiler: Divide 6 Jan 2021 Who gets to decide what we are Or where the difference lies Who gets to decide who we are And label us their chosen name Why do we let them decide Who are our friends and foes Why do we let them decide Our fate and identity When will we decide This whole ploy is enough When will we decide That we won't be divided Spoiler: Thump 6 Jan 2021 All it took was one second All it took was one word How fast everything changed In just one drum of heartbeat A glorious palace now ruined A great audience now empty How far everything changed Subjects full of loyalty turned disdain Why did it all fall apart Why did it become smothered How did our powerful empire Ended in just one heartbeat Spoiler: Boo! 8 Jan 2021 "Boo!" shouted the kid in my ear Jolting me awake in my rest Disrupting my quiet thought Again for the tenth time "Boo!" Again, the annoying kid Why does he keep doing this Just let me read in peace I shouted back at his scurrying ass "Boo!" I swear, this child Don't you have other friends Fellow kids to play with Go play with your mates, not me "Boo!" I stopped in silence Looked at his laughing mug I told him stop, I don't like it But he insisted and ran away "Boo!" I got used to it by now Again I told him to stop But he just smiled instead And he laughed heartily "Boo!" When will this end I continued reading my book Despite that he sticked around Sneaking glances at my hand Today's a very special day It's an unhindered reading day What a miracle, what a blessing I wonder where the kid went Days have passed since then Sometimes I think back to him Where he is, why did he disappear Why he kept coming to surprise me Despite my musings, the answer is lost Along with his presence and laugh And his smile at my scoldings *Boo!* The wind faintly whispered Spoiler: Help 8 Jan 2021 Hey, Papa, let's play Like other dads and sons We can play catch or ball Or any game that you want Hey, Papa, let's play You want hide and seek? I can't believe you agreed! Let's do it! I'm so excited! Hey, Papa, it's been 5 hours When will you find me Papa, I'm hungry now Papa, did you forget? Hey, Papa, what happened? What about our game? What do you mean it's still going on When will you finally seek me Hey, Papa, I just want to play I just want your attention I just want your affection Papa, I'm sorry I exist Hey, Papa, why am I alone? Why are they laughing at me? Papa, I don't like this Papa, what do I do? Hey, Papa, I don't like being alone I don't like being pitied and looked down I don't like being sad and upset So I will do what you taught me Hey, Papa, I punched them Because I didn't like it What they did made me angry It made me ~~sad and hurt~~ Hey, Papa, why did you hit me? Didn't you tell me to be strong I was strong and I punched them! Papa, why are you mad at me Hey, Papa, I just want to play I just want your attention I just want your affection Papa, I'm sorry I exist ----------------- P.s. for extra oomph, read this as the point of view of the boy in the previous poem Spoiler: Devil 9 Jan 2021 the taste of fruity honey and rich chocolate cake the scent of fresh cookies and a garden of lilies the devils only whisper sweetly with words deeply coated with sugar they only ever smile gently intentions thick with deceit the pleasant serenade and lullaby calling you away from service charming persuasions and calls holding you tightly in restrain until all that's left is lethargy Spoiler: Loud Noises 10 Jan 2021 The sirens blast its nightmarish tune Calling attention to its bright red pulse People yelling in manic anger Raw emotion in full unfiltered display Like boiling cauldron emitting toxic fumes Where does it go from here? As we fight over who has the most say The largest volume to reflect our power Compensating our lack of control As we insist on our rightness over others' Until the weak back down first and lose How will we maintain this link? My voice is hoarse and my throat dry I'm tired of the fighting and screaming Tired of being upset and heartbroken Of always giving up and surrendering Please I don't want to scream anymore When will we finally learn? Spoiler: Determined 11 Jan 2021 It's the feeling when you grit your teeth The feeling when you roll your sleeves When you roll your shoulders back When you repeat your special mantra The calm moment as you take a deep breath Make a decision to see it through to the end When you look at challenge in the eye When you face your fear without cowering It's quiet but strong, serene but powerful Like crackling embers, tranquil yet passionate When you don't know where the future will go Yet you know exactly where you will be Spoiler: History 13 Jan 2021 History is subjective For it only ever tells Of one's side of the story The survivor's tale of glory History is biased It's only ever in one color Only ever said one message The winner's propaganda History is prejudiced Some figures disappeared simply Some overshadowed by others It only ever tells his story Spoiler: Lost 15 Jan 2021 Walking alone by the seaside The winds rushing along my face Blowing my hair sideways As my mind drifted away To yesterday, to a year ago To the first time we met Thinking of the couldbes The whatifs and whatnots But there is no end to this No destination to arrive to No conclusion to reach Just a person, lost in thought Spoiler: Change 15 Jan 2021 I poured the chopped ingredients in And stirred the bubbling mixture Whispering a little incantation Like what I learned as a child I poured the chopped herbs in And stirred the bubbling soup Whispering a little prayer Like I will do even when I'm grown up - - - Author note: You wish for things to not change, but sometimes it just does. Spoiler: Rock 13 Jan 2021 I know exactly where I want to be Exactly where I want to go And once I set my eyes on it I'm steady as a rock Spoiler: Skelley 16 Jan 2021 You were our wild card A powerful force of nature An uncontainable hurricane A person with an obstinate mind But we decided to take a chance You are our blessing A proud and dutiful role model A helping hand to other's trouble A strong vision and a clear path The best decision we've ever made Spoiler: Flower 17 Jan 2021 The wind blows again on this barren field Singing its fantastic song as it glides between stones I stand alone again on this desolate ground Sighing the phenomenal origin of the sands The tale of the all-consuming fire gleefully running Fueled by the ecstatic love you showered me The passionate warmth you enveloped me with This is all I need - with you, I am satisfied So why did the fire die out So why did you leave me behind Why is all that's left a lifeless land Exposing its cracks and scars Why is all that's left the winter wind A chilling frost gnawing your bones Why is all that's left is just me With dried-out tears marking my face Rather than these cracks, I'd rather embers Rather than this cold, I'd rather burn I'd rather be the fire itself A beautiful red flower alight Spoiler: Fairy 19 Jan 2021 Whimsical creature Elludes our capture attempts Except literature Spoiler: Candle 19 Jan 2021 a candle's flame alight bright but small quiet but true just like a beating heart a candle's light aflame lighting up the dark giving reassurance security in the unknown Spoiler: Drowning 20 Jan 2021 Hand raised up, I saw its shadow Equable pattern runs across surface Languid mind lulls into a sleep Power left my limbs and I stay still Memories resurface of time long gone . . . Eyes wet with camouflaged tears . . . Spoiler: Duel 20 Jan 2021 It's a race against you The only one I acknowledge My rival, enemy I fight against My partner in pursuit of excellence It's a race against time The fastest one wins No time to dilly dally Each and every second counts It's a race against me Against my past record Be better than my history Growth is beating myself Spoiler: The Roles We Play 22 Jan 2021 The red moon demands another sacrifice Blood to dye the rivers and soil For when the Gods anger, we provide We are simply their pawns of service The thread of fate shifts again Moving to situations out of control For when the wheels turn, we are helpless We are puppets of their grand plays The Grim Reaper comes for his dues Lives, his to reap, souls, his to collect For when Death knocks, no one can deny We are powerless before its whims Spoiler: Normal 23 Jan 2021 It all just became white noise The screaming and shouting The insults and hate speech A normal scene on the media We're all just desensitized The disparaging comments No respect for any opinions A normal sight to scroll past Defending my attitude Berating any in disbelief Rattles of empty minds A normal fight to engage Changed perception Brainwashed society Why have we accepted A normal part of our lives
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.” -CS Lewis This is what it made me think of. I like this one.