Discussion in 'Spoilers' started by azure_sea, Sep 3, 2017.
omg thank you very much *dogeza AAAAAHHHH heine <3
i know right, it's such a gem. i'm surprised the story doesn't get more love than it currently does. hopefully the spoilers help increase fan count
likely cuz its zombie themed and most of them turn up SE and BE
SE? BE? (what are those o.o)
but the zombies are all props for Heine's awesome killing skillz ... how else would he show off his awesomeness without zombies
Sad Ending & Bad Ending
TBH, i only gave this one a try after reading the zombie apocalypse arc in FOD heh.. so i don't know how other zombie novels tend to end.
They tend to kill the MC or ML off or everyone. I mean sure its logical, but the actions that led to their demise is just so.... dumb.... Especially one can see from the latest zombie tv series and movies.
Ahhhh im so glad that I started to mtl this! And i didn't expect it to be this easy to mtl. Im amazed that Google could be so poetic.. O.O
IKR! I was so surprised when MTL could come up with such poetic words, especially Heine's part! I felt so much emotions through it all lol
80 & 81
- Jan & Casey still discussing XY, Jan says he knows he doesn’t have a chance
- ML brings the antidote back to Charles, injects into XY, Gordon teases Ai about the fact that it was developed by Casey
- XY wakes up to find he’s lying down with ML & freaks out - his memories have all disconnected. He remembers events but they’re not linear and everything is jumbled up.
- At least he remembers Heine’s name..
- but he’s still mentally stuck in remembering how ML broke his arm (when they first met) and can’t reconcile it with the current lovey-relationship status
- Even so, ML helps XY calm down, tho XY remembers how much ML hates touch and is still freaking out at how nice ML is being, and remembering the intimate (sexual) moments with ML and freaking out again because doesn’t he like women?
- ML manages to stay calm throughout, takes XY to the torture unit, Xiti says he’ll help XY try to reconnect the dots
- Xiti explains that his brain effectively rebooted because of the virus add-on that sent him into a coma, all the ‘files’ are there but they’re not connected properly anymore. Older memories are less fragmented, because the human memory is like a building, the older and deeper memory is, the stronger it is
- Xiti can’t really help XY reconnect fragments of his life, because he doesn’t actually know it, but he can help XY remember his research projects, which is priority for everyone
- Seems that Xiti is enjoying himself a little at ML’s expense since he(ML)’s relationship with XY currently can’t progress with XY being all confused
- funny bit: XY innocently teases Liv that he’ll soak in the bathtub with her, and ML overhears, is jealous, arranges for people to remove the bathtub ASAP
- XY lying in bed, remembering fragments of having sex with ML, is shocked at himself, wondering why he didn’t hate it, why … he feels that maybe amnesia would’ve been better than this remembering fragments thing
- meanwhile, special ops are discussing the upgraded zombies and how to train against them as their fatalities are rising
- Wen remembers the training simulation program XY made and suggests that they use that
- now that XY has been promoted to Major, he’s required to attend internal meetings with the Central Academy, ML picks up XY the next day to take him there… XY can’t resist furtively looking at ML, ML tells him that if he wants to look, he can look, and XY freaks out again, just as ML is leaning over for a kiss… they make out crazily
- The arrival of the maglev at their destination brings XY back to himself, he’s super embarrassed, ML is unruffled as usual and casually fixes up his clothes, gives XY another intimate kiss before sending him off
- XY is escorted by two guards to the meeting, where Ai introduces him & brings up the special ops’ request to develop a training simulation system that’s an improvement on the one XY has already made
i kinda forgot how much i <3 ML, for being so ... calm. and sneaky. and just how well he is at expressing himself even though he's a man of (very) few words.
Ahhhh I am aliveeee!!!!! \o/
Thanx for the spoilers as always
hnnnggghhh!! aw so cute
LMAO I remember that bathtub scene. Liv almost shit her pants when XY made that flirty comment and XY is all innocent going "Why are you taking my bathtub away?!" when ML decided XY didn't need that bathtub
XD i didn't add it in but there was also that part where he runs into Maya and is all like "why is your hair all gone" haha~ forgetful XY is so cute. and quietly-suffering-but-kinda-still-taking-advantage Heine is also awesome~
OMG I remember that part LMAO, he kept pestering Maya when Maya said he cut it off himself with "Nonsense, you love your hair too much!" I really love this what I called as "amnesia arc" cuz poor Heine! He went through a lot of shit to get XY to acknowledge what he feels about him and then XY get all confused about it! He almost snapped!
- XY mentally complains about being put to work so soon since he just got promoted, also he still can’t remember many things, he can only put together fragments of the project but not all the details
- Major Loch is assigned to come up with a even faster processing system to take full advantage of XY’s crazy processing power. XY is also told to find himself some research assistants since he’s heading his own department now & also needs to continue developing X-2
- a super confident Major Ritz gets assigned to improve on the new planes that Jan showed up with
- meeting adjourns, XY is hugged around the shoulders by Ritz who asks why he looks all depressed, saying everyone here also has several research projects, it’s all normal. Loch chimes in that not everyone wants to be like Ritz, with 26 accumulated unfinished projects & they start bickering about who will die first of tiredness due to lack of sleep (Loch for overachieving), or who will develop alzheimers first (Ritz, from being too lazy)
- Ritz invites XY out for drinks at the Blue Tulip to celebrate his first day as major, starts listing beauties that they can hang out with, Loch interrupts saying that he’s sure it’ll be fun, but he(Loch) will then definitely outlive Ritz
- Ritz drops the arm around XY’s shoulders and is all like, “haha.. oh.. “
- fragmented-memories!XY: “What does this have to do with Heine?”
- Ritz kindly reminds him about ML kissing him at the gate of the academy that morning when dropping him off, basically branding him. Saying he wants to maintain his life, it’s better to keep their relationship to a friendly work one (hahahahahaha) Loch & Ritz go to the Blue Tulip themselves
- XY takes a deep breath, goes back to the torture unit again to find Xiti. Who then teases saying “I bet, ML wanted to eat you up in that military uniform”
- XY doesn’t respond, telling Xiti that his memories are still fragmented about ML, Xiti wonders aloud if XY just hasn’t rearranged his memories about ML, or doesn’t want to. XY is silent. Xiti gives him a hint, “Don’t fall asleep while connected to the terminal, or ML will invade the terminal and mercilessly mount (上-its really that blunt）you.” (xiin: laughing my ass off here. XY is so cute hahaha and getting teased everywhere about ML)
- Xiti spends the afternoon helping XY reconnect his memories regarding his research projects. At the end of it, he tells XY that he hopes this is the last time. XY is apologetic, but Xiti explains that that’s not it. Helping him is very enjoyable, but XY is like an open book and Xiti gets the impulse to destroy him. He(Xiti) has good self control, but not everyone is like him and enters his brain in good faith. It’s at this moment that XY finally remembers that this guy is actually the head of the *torture* unit and not just the mild-mannered guy he sees in front of him.
- Returning back to his room, he sees a whole shelf of real paper books. ML asks if he likes it, XY: “Of course!” Before realizing that ML is in his room! XY tells ML he remembers him(ML) giving him the little hermit crab, but his most clear memory is of ML breaking XY’s arm. ML says goodnight and leaves the room without kissing XY, XY suddenly feels empty in his heart
- Next day, Loch has already upgraded his system. XY is looking through all the research assistant applicants, can’t find any that he likes. He doesn’t want anyone that’s bound into the framework of a researcher, he needs someone that will question him to think out of the box, to think in different ways
- XY leaves his research area and goes to college, telling his two special ops guards that he’s going to try and recall his past
- When he goes the first time he’s recognized as a celebrity, he then retreats and gets school uniforms for himself & the guards before going back again.
- Entering a random lecture on viral variants, he sits and looks around, noticing a student in the back that fell asleep. The kid then wakes up in the last minute of the lecture and submits his schoolwork in the last second. XY follows the kid around to another lecture, before getting confronted by the kid for following him around. Kid reminds XY of Casey.
- XY tells the kid he was following him around because he found him interesting. Challenges him to a bet. If the kid wins, XY will have to do a year’s tests for him(kid). XY hasn’t decided on the forfeit if he wins, though. They decide to compete by mutually testing the other with computer trials in the library. Kid’s name is Lauren Ann (xiin: it’s a guy with a girly name. i’m not making things up!)
- first trial, Lauren asks XY to make a mock-raid on the presidential palace and blow it up within 10 minutes. XY is a bit apprehensive about getting suspected for terrorist activities but proceeds anyway, wins within the last minute by using the first 9 minutes to observe, the last minute to make a push.
- second trial, XY asks Lauren to come up with an antidote for something based off the X virus in 10 minutes. Normally researchers at the academy would need at least half an hour, XY feels a bit like he’s bullying. Lauren wins by first hacking into a professor’s terminal to steal some shortcuts, completes the task in 8 minutes
- they have spectators now, spectators call out that Lauren cheated, but XY acknowledges that he never made any rules against basing it off a professor’s work
- third trial, Lauren asks XY to make an antidote to a virus in 10 minutes. XY gets it done in 5 minutes 41 seconds, the kid is indignant, saying that he previously also took longer on purpose so that the competition could go on
- fourth trial, XY is inspired by previous experience with ML and puts Lauren in a locked room with only a gun and air that will run out in 10 minutes. Lauren gets out, but XY is coming to the realization that he can’t control his thoughts re: ML
- fifth trial, another virus test that XY has to complete in 5 minutes. XY completes in 2 minutes, Lauren starts to wonder about XY’s identity
- sixth trial, XY puts Lauren in another room with a 12 bit password, 5 minutes to leave. Lauren cracks the password in the last 10 seconds but still can’t leave. XY smirks, “I didn’t tell you to calculate the password, just asked you to leave” and opens the door directly. The password and the door weren’t related, the door design was just different from what Lauren was used to (push to open versus pull/slide to open)
- Lauren’s irritated, tries to attack XY, but XY unconsciously reacts (having forgotten he has the X virus now) and puts Lauren on the floor. Everyone is shocked, XY explains the logic behind the test and how Lauren can’t let predetermined ways of thinking hinder research.
- Right when Lauren is about to reply, a voice cuts in “Is your entertainment for today over? Major XY?”
- It’s ML showing up in his army uniform followed by two embarassed looking special ops guards. The whole place is silent as XY & ML leave. Lauren chases after them, accuses XY of just playing with him, but XY tells him he was looking for a companion. He doesn’t want a research assistant, he wants someone that will remind him to try to push the door open when he’s trying to pull/slide it.
- After saying that, him and ML leave. In the maglev, XY tells his liason officer via comm that he wants Lauren Ann as a research assistant.
- Arriving back to the base, ML suddenly asks XY to have dinner together. XY can’t think of a reason to refuse, and agrees. ML takes XY to tower 2 (?) where they can see the sunset. They have to go through a tunnel to get there, ML takes XY’s hand to guide him, XY can feel his blood pounding, their skin contact gives him a special feeling
- Outside the passage, XY sees birds, the horizon, and the setting sun. ML hands him a packet of improved-flavor army biscuits and tells him it’s his dinner (hahahaha)
- ML asks him what he would want to have instead, and XY responds that it would be great to be able to enjoy such a view with a glass of red wine… and then berates himself internally for saying such things. it’s not like ML can suddenly find some red wine, and XY himself isn’t a woman to be courted… he picks up the biscuits and start eating
- As he’s eating, a scene suddenly enters his mind…
- XY: “You once put butter on bread, right?” The memory replays in his mind of ML, his calm expression as he buttered the bread..
- ML: “I don’t have red wine and steak.” XY is surprised he understands the underlying meaning of ML’s words - although he(XY) likes those things, when materials are limited, ML can only give him buttered bread
- XY sighs, recalling fragmented memories. Notices ML took his biscuit, “Hey, that biscuit was mine!”. ML: “I’ve kissed you before.”
- There’s no logic to their dialogue, but despite that XY feels a sense of superiority, he remembers the way ML abhors touch and was distant from everyone, but ML’s “I’ve kissed you before” lets XY know that he is the exception, that ML will indulge him.
- The sun sets, and ML leads them back. Without light, the outside world becomes empty and a little fearful. In the tunnel, XY uses his hands to try to find his way, it feels like the tunnel is longer than he remembers. Until his hand encounters something… he’s sure it’s ML’s back
- XY feels unsettled, as if this man will devour him at any time. Breathing in the darkness seems particularly loud, his heart is pounding. When he tries to break away, ML just tightens his fingers around XY’s wrist
- ML: “I won’t let you go.” XY: “Colonel?” XY swallows.
- ML: “You don’t understand the fear & despair that I felt that time when you put me in the small reactor. You just swaggeringly do what you want, and squander my patience.” (xiin: when XY was abducted an XY saved ML’s life with the injection of X-2 and stuffed him in a corner) ML’s tone is frighteningly calm.
- XY: “I .. I remember everything that happened with you, Colonel! I just need time to connect everything together!”
- XY knows what ML is concerned about. His thoughts and feelings are very clear, in his sleep the fragments and scenes continue to flow. The man(ML) takes up too much of his(XY) attention, so when XY woke up again he’s unable to adapt.
- ML: “What’s the meaning of putting everything together? It’s all been in your brain the whole time. Or, are you saying that if you can’t connect it together, you aren’t the original Xiao Yan?”
- XY never thought he would be questioned by Heine. In his impression of the man, he only ever had orders, even care and protection, but it was always displayed in a very calm way. Right now, it seems as though his shell is cracked and will break apart any time.
- XY feels himself pushed to the side of the passage, balance is unstable, “Colonel Burton! What happened..” His lips are pressed open and filled with a warm tongue, unable to resist, utterly routed. ML’s palm is cruising all over his body, in the dark & unable to see, all his thoughts are focused on the temperature of the other’s palm.
- 很烫。 It’s very hot.
- XY can’t think, can only struggle with his all. All kinds of free style attacks, elbows, knees, every attempt is blocked by the other.
- He remembers that a lot of his skills are taught by ML.
Why? Why would this neither hot nor cold person spare no effort to teach him?
To protect him.
Why does this man use this kind of full possession to oppress him?
Because of fear.
But why is he scared?
Because the only thing that Heine Burton insists on having as his own, is him.
With the answers laid out so obviously, XY knows he cannot escape.
- The intensity of the kiss continues to escalate, XY’s pants are taken down by the other, his leg is lifted to a nearly uncomfortable position. “Try to enjoy all this, Major.” ML’s icy commanding voice echoes in XY’s ear.
- ML’s fingers penetrate his most ‘difficult part’. XY can’t breathe, can only struggle, but is pushed back against the wall. Without warning, the other suddenly pushes the whole way in, XY can only helplessly beat on his shoulders.
- “Sh.. I’m inside now.” Voice sounds by XY’s ears, XY is firmly caught.
- “Wring my neck, or hold on to me.” This is a choice that’s not even a choice at all. XY can only hug ML and rest his chin on his shoulder.
- “Feel me, and remember me.” “感受我，然后记住我。”
- ML slowly begins to move, using force, as though wanting to join two into one. ML was right, in the dark, XY cannot feel anything except ML. The other’s shape, his power, even his obsession ceaselessly impacts onto XY.
- Unable to stand, they slide down, ML doesn’t slow down, his legs are repositioned at ML’s shoulders and his whole body is lifted off the ground, he can only cling to ML. XY’s voice is reduced to fragments, he can’t even beg for mercy.
- ML pauses, kisses XY’s closed eyes, gently touches his nose. This kind of tenderness is difficult to imagine, but the impact is strong, and XY is unconsciously sinking deeper.
- In this moment, XY is suddenly turned over, on his knees, darkness concealing his shame(?), and he can feel the strength of the other riding his waist again. XY thinks he’s going crazy, completely mad. His body is moving back and forth, trying to escape, but in the end was just more forcefully taken. His brain is chaotic, and finally he topples, forehead resting on his hands, but the other side still hasn’t reached his peak.
- XY’s thinking has been utterly destroyed, letting the other continue his endless demands for everything.
- When he gains consciousness, he’s in a soft bed, being held tightly by a pair of arms
- Breathing in, he turns to see a quietly sleeping beautiful face on the pillow. In a rush, everything from the night before comes back to him, he turns over and rushes off the bed with a speed he never knew he had. His entire body is chilly, and he realizes that he’s naked.
- The man on the bed props himself up on one hand, slowly opening his eyes. “It’s still early.”
- XY swallows, his head filled with thoughts. ML finally gets up, and XY hurriedly covers his groin area. Even knowing the scene is ridiculous, but he still had to do it. ML reaches out and tugs his wrist, pulling his hand away. XY is reluctant, internally thinking ‘what are you looking at! you also have one! And yours is fucking bigger than mine!’ 看什么看啊！我有的你都有！你他妈的还比我的大！(xiin： OMG I don’t know how I missed this the first time ‘round this is HILARIOUS I’m falling over laughing)
- ML can’t hear XY’s internal monologue, just looking at XY’s groin. XY: “It’s… morning…” inernally: and you shouldn’t be doing these things to me! And you’re not supposed to be in my room at all!
- And the most important thing … XY knows that what happened in the passage/tunnel wasn’t the first time these things happened between him and ML! Wait。。。 yesterday they were in the tunnel…
- XY: “How did I come back yesterday?”
- ML: “I carried you back.”
- XY turns into stone. (figuratively. 肖岩石化。) Internally thinks that he’s going to apply to the North Pole base. He doesn’t want to mix in Charles anymore!
- ML: “Do you hate me?” ML looks up at XY. His eyes are soft, it’s like the beginning of a fall.
- XY: “Don’t hate..” Unsconscious response. And he realizes more clearly why ML forced himself last night. ML made XY realize that no matter what he(ML) does to him, XY still holds a forgiving attitude & is ok with it. Most men, after being embraced by another man, would absolutely not be okay! XY reflects that if it had been Maya, he would definitely be fighting!
- XY exhales, fingers brush across ML’s hair. No matter how hard the man looks, there’s always a soft place.
- Suddenly, XY feels himself (his **) being enclosed in a warmth. Looking down, his heart wants to burst! He feels like all the shocks he’s had in his lifetime don’t match up to this moment! ML has XY in his mouth, gently sucking, all XY can feel is the other’s tongue sliding across… “Oh my god! Oh my god!”
- XY lowers his head, unable to move his eyes away, the high-above-others Heine is…
- XY orgasms to the sound of the alarm clock. Thick liquid splashes on ML’s cheeks, and XY closes his eyes in enjoyment of the unparalleled moment.
- “Your assistant is waiting for you in the research room.” While XY is still in shock, ML heads to the bathroom
- XY chases after him, “Colonel! Why…” He sees ML cleaning his face in the bathroom. ML: “What ‘why’..” ML looks at XY, rubs his face with a towel. XY: “Why did you.. o..o.. “ Can’t say the word.
- ML: “What you want to ask is just oral.” Things that XY can’t say, for ML is as simple as eating and sleeping.
- ML: “Or do you want to ask about yesterday in the tunnel when I fucked you.” Puts the towel back into it’s place.
- XY: “Fucking and oral is completely different.” This time XY is no longer timid and meets ML’s eyes.
- ML: “Well would you believe the answer that I give you.” (xiin: even though it’s technically a question, it’s not ended with a question mark. It’s kinda typical ML.)
- XY: “Yes, I believe.”
- ML: “I am your man. Other than fucking you, I will also try to please you.” ML’s hand covers XY’s heart. “As yourself, who is the person you trust the most. Regardless of what the danger is, the person you will do anything to get back to. If you ask why I fuck you, as a man, even though you have lost your self-esteem/manliness at my hands, would you want to kill me?”
- XY doesn’t need to think about it, he hasn’t hated ML for a second.
- ML’s hand cups XY’s cheek. “Regardless of whether you can clearly think through the past between us, one thing has never changed.”
- XY: “What?”
- ML: “You want to belong to me.” ML kisses XY on the forehead.
- XY reflects, yes. He has always believed in ML. He remembers when the base was attacked by zombies, and he was trapped in the room, the only person he could think of was ML.
- ML: “You’re going to be late, Major.”
- Stepping in the academy, XY finds that people are giving him strange looks. Ritz comes up, smacks XY on the shoulder. “Didn’t expect you to be late! But, being in charge of the research department, being late is not a big deal.”
- XY: “haha..” Internally thankful for the X virus, otherwise after yesterday’s intense… sports… he may have died early, and not been nearly as energetic as he is now.
- “I suggest you make an appointment to see the psychologist. I hear psychotherapy is very advanced now.” Loch, coming up from the side. XY is confused. What psychologist?
- Another passing captain salutes XY, “Ah, we heard about what happened in the the flight tunnel yesterday! It’s great to see you safe and sound!”
- XY blushes furious red. Great! Everyone knows the issue of him having sex with ML! The whole of Charles knows!!!!
- Ritz: “It’s good that your research room is very bright.”
- Passing researchers also look at XY sympathetically. “It turns out that even such a genius has a tender spot! How cute!” “Right! Has no strength, even had to be carried by Burton to leave the passage!”
- XY is going crazy, he wants to grown at everyone to shut up in embarrassment
- Ritz: “Hey, claustrophobia, that’s a little weaksauce, right?”
- XY: “What?” Poor Ritz has to explain, yesterday when ML brought a fainted XY out of the passage, ML explained to everyone that he(XY) doesn’t like the darkness and confinement to the point where he fainted.
- XY, faintly.. “Oh.. yeah..”
- In the research rooms, Lauren is waiting for him. He’s super excited about getting to play with all the amazing tech.. “Whoa! This is like the processing speed of god!”
i was going to stop at 83, but remembered that 84 had some awesome stuff... (read it and you'll know, heh heh heh )
IMHO this sequence of sex/confession/lovey stuff is sooo much better than the first sex scene they had. & how much i liked it is kinda obvious since i ended up more half-translating than summarizing
ALSO i don't know if ya'll already know this but the author has another novel .. even though it's not BL...
*runs off to indulge*
I know it. And there is no smut scene but soooo much tease. just for a kiss, totally make me blush
I had this in my reading list since forever... But I never realized its from this author. Omg, time to read!
i just read it (in 24 hours ) and it's the fluffiest novel ever.
also apparently there is this: https://forum.novelupdates.com/threads/could-you-stop-teasing-me.46835/ BL BY THE SAME AUTHOR. guess what i'm gonna go do now
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