Today I'm planning to write about my brother. Yes, my big brother, who's older than me by two years and still trying to get past the college entrance, when I'm already a first year. My brother, whom my family and all the relatives loved more than me as I've felt it in my emo period of youth. My stupid brother, who spends time either watching k-drama or anime all day long instead of actually picking up a book. My freaking brother, who only needs drop of effort from all the amounts I put into doing something to get the same results done as me but still playing too lazy to budge. My damn brother, who doesn't even own any merit over all his 20-something year old life and whom I've been a little jealous of all my 20-something life.
Well actually he's quite a cool guy, that is.. if he wasn't my brother. Now that he is, I feel he's.. pretty useless? as a brother. I mean, he never does any work for himself or for us?(his family). But he just had to be the kind that pleases others no matter what he does, which is why his whole existence gets on my nerves all the time! Garr mukatsku! Everyone in our fam loves him, but they all say how I'm rude? or subversive? for a girl, while my brother is so innocent and agreeable for a guy. Even though I always play the goodey little doll. I was quite depressed over this years back you know. Even though I'm fine now, I know I'm still a little jealous of that damn useless human being.
Apart from all that, I think I don't hate my bro that much. As I've already said he's a pretty cool guy, as a friend. I usually get a bit suspicious of the various things he does. For example he sometimes spends over an hour locked inside the bathroom or when he locks himself inside the storage room upstairs or when he suddenly locks himself up inside his room for half a day. I suddenly get this strong urge to barge in and see(wreck) what he's doing but.. too bad, my cowardice gets in the way. Though I try eavesdropping sometimes(it never works sigh). Plus with All the more suspicious things guys ever does. Mukatsku! mukatsu!!
But that's for another day. Bye now.