Feeling a little Restless

Or maybe its indifference. My mind races with thoughts and sometimes it has no brakes.

Events transpire and conversations abound, socializing, responding to obligations, working and working and working.

And then when its time to rest, it feels like my internal engine is on idle. Running but not moving anywhere.

Not sure how to describe this feeling, I'm not anxious, not nervous, not particularly headstrong either.

Its like when my thoughts and emotions don't jive together. A moment when something is super hilarious but my body lags to respond.

......I don't know.... I can't think..... My mind is blank.... I want to do something.... but the actual drive to do it just dies.....

You know when I mentioned my engine is in idle, its like at the moment I want to either go forward, turn left, or turn right, everything just stalls and my engine just dies.... And when I restart my engine, I'm back in the idle situation.

This is me just typing away on mobile, while lying on my bed, staring at my ceiling. I got bored of watching my white ceiling that I'm on my phone now. But now that this blog is done.....

Idk..... I should just close my eyes already