I Don't Know

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TW: Some things about soyside.

Last week, I got my report card for the 3rd Quarter. When I saw my marks, I felt so devastated and had a breakdown for the nth time that week. My mom and dad, they did not say it but I can feel that they're disappointed too. I was too tired of life and then this happened. I wanna die but I'm so afraid of pain LOL. I started searching some methods but I found none. I thought of manifesting it. I don't know what happened but instead of manifesting for my death, I started manifesting for higher grades. I only stayed devastated for 2 days and DAMN I DON'T KNOW. I didn't dwell on that loss and started thinking positive blah blah. I started feeling grateful for waking up and for everything which I have never really done before ksksk. I started feeling like the sun is so beautiful.

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    1. SwordEmpress Apr 8, 2021
      My only relief is that because everything is online they haven't been mailing them. Also I moved last summer and in my new school they might have some kind of miscommunication. Hopefully they never fix it and mine don't(know how to?) check online... But even so I get depressed every time. Also my 3rd Quarter is about to end in 2 days and I still have a lot of make up to do. Imma kill myself with misery....

      Other things I can perk up but school and grades always leave me with a lump in my throat... Ughhhh.

      For both you and me

      Sun is shining so bright
      (It's in the middle of night-er-morning lol)
      The spring flowers are blooming tonight
      (But I do believe that Jasmine's blooming season is summer though-summer nights to be exact... Hummmm)
      Bees are bumbling about
      Birds are singing in the trees
      Tweet!tweet!Tweet!!!
      Humpty dumpty sat on wall
      (Shiiii-- my baby bros nursery rhymes are coming in my head)
      King why don't you give me your crown
      I will spread your riches to do good.

      Hey Yakinori dear let's ditch this stuff and go chill out ＼(^o^)／
      (･–･) \(･◡･)/

      Feeling better!! I think I do now GOOD LUCK and GN to me!!
    2. Fulminata Apr 4, 2021
      :blob_pompom::blob_pompom: you can do this!!!
      Fighting!!
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