Outsider

Because I want to know happiness
I am singing about sadness
Because I want to continue living
I am writing about death
Isn't my logic so simple?

Opening my eyes to another day
I clapped my hands and pray to unknown God
Who never fulfilling anyone wishes

In this coldness reality
I tried to smile
I tried to attain human warmth

But what can I do when I keep relying in FICTIONAL STUFF
Without knowing what it actually feels like for real
I am struggling to making sense of something unreal

I received hostility
I received scar
Do you think I don't understand that I am just an Outsider
I knew it all along but I tried to communicate
I knew it from the beginning that it won't reach you
So i said goodbye and becoming alone again

Aaaa...
It's so frustrating
Aaaa...
I don't want to continue it anymore
But the time of torture still ticking
So I guess I will try once more