So, I was reading https://forum.novelupdates.com/posts/4107322/ and was struck by a flash of inspiration. Was it god? Was it the devil? Who knows. WORTHLESS SCUM! I'LL NYAA YOU ALL!!! I WILL HAVE MY VENGEANCE!! I understand it all now! The true reason for my nyaath! No more crying. Smile. My wrath...is finally... ...apologies to @asriu .