Novel am i a goddess? a devil? no i am a lizard (ch 112 ongoing)

-its the start of festival”



after meeting bernard, i start to discuss various thing to him


it turns out he’s more useful than i thought, not only helping me for the case of teleportation, i received some idea for my plan and a map of demon king territory including demon king castle



after that he promised to bring the teleport device to my place once he’s ready


teleport device doesn't use any mp or caster once injected with magic power, but the drawback is each one is expensive and need effort to make. it can only move to the designed location too as long the magical power in the device remains



for you to go this far.. my friend, let me bring you to a mixer next time! though i never even go to one so i can’t bring you, sorry!



a week has passed. so those thugs probably already finished the preparations and can move on to the next phase


and it's the day i have to meet him too



….


…...


……...



i don't want to go


i don't wanna, no, never!


but i can’t refuse! i know he said he won't do anything even if i don't go. but who knows when his mood is getting bad what will he done to me


i cannot trust him completely at all! the main character fate is impossible to stopped! even if i tried to struggling i would get trapped within his route no matter how i resist! any bad end or happy end will definitely done in his favor. shit



that’s why


i will make a plan before i come there


so i apologize with all my heart



“sorry, black cat girl”



and i start to move on to mines



………..



“...”



this, really beyond my expectation


so many people is here that i can only see people as much as i can see


ew.. i’m getting sick


it's even worse than subway in crowded tokyo or nakano where alot of people coming and going


can i kill them? can i?


yeah, probably not. i knew it



“ah master, over here”



i got called by wolf.. i mean, tuvalu


seriously, they're done better than my expectations


looking closely, oo-kun is beside him too



“MASTER, MISSION ACCOMPLISHED”



ahh good job oo-kun. though i can't see your expression i bet you're happy too


since there seems to be a lot of people, i cannot see well but it seems the thugs are here too


hmm? they looked so exhausted that i think i saw something like a soul flown out from their mouths. it's just my imagination right?


however, hearing tuvalu calls me master, everyone attention is focused to me



master?

so she was the so called devil god?

hmm she looked younger than i thought

is it true she pulverized a mountain with bare hands?

fool! i heard she can even seduce the whole army into submission only using her touch

from what i heard, she can even makes any man or woman moans like a beautiful enchantress

is it true? that just from one touch you can even change your preferences from man to woman?

as expected from the devil!

no, perhaps we should call her queen or empress instead?

ahh queen! please step on me

fool! she won't be interested with you

i heard she only interested with a young kids

if i let her touch my daughter, would they grown into beautiful?

haha probably is. but we never know if your daughter still a daughter

perhaps she would change into your son instead

what was that? the devil god is scary

instead of devil god, how about we call her lustful demon king instead?

ooh sounds good. then the devil in the night

haha you would scare the kids



…..



“...”



i heard something that it seems like i cannot ignore


i called wolf for confirmation



“wolf”


“yes? ah master. my name is tuvalu”


“then explain it more clearly mutt. what the fuck is devil god army?”


“ah, ha hai!”



wolf.. tuvalu begin his explanation


apparently i got called devil god by my follower



once it spread they begin to call themself devil god army


because i never said the name of our group, they decide it unanimously


some even spread the rumor that i was only interested with young beastman under 10 age or below


because they really wants me to become famous, they spread it excitedly. too much in fact



….



“....”



what the fuck are you guys doing without my permission? this is the first time i heard about it



sure, i think i said to find as much helpers as much as possible, but not spreading baseless rumour of me


thinking it's already unstoppable i start to ignore it


theres.. more beastman than i thought too. so there's more survivor than i thought



after that, some more people greets me.

some giant wolf demanding me for a match, an old man dwarf keep asking me about the sword in my waist, a hot blooded idiot said he want to try my strength, even a wolf woman making an advance to me, said she wants to experience my technique that is said to surpass tuvalu. what the hell?



i got impatient and annoyed by the barrage of question, so i start to slash down my sword to the ground like usual and screamed



“ANYONE WHO IS NOT AFRAID TO DIE AND WANTS TO TESTING ME, GO AHEAD. ANYONE WHO WANT TO ASK QUESTION AND NOT AFRAID TO DIE, GO AHEAD. EVERYBODY ELSE, DIE”



seemingly intimidated, some of the crowd lessen and only a handful of people left



perfect


i need some fighting practice before meeting that guy anyway


thinking to relieve some stress i start to attack them seriously



……



“GUH, I.. I SURRENDER! PLEASE, STOP HITTING ME!”


“haa? what are you talking about big mutt? the battle is not over until i decide it. even if you die you cannot escape and i will revive you again and die again”


“TH.. THAT’S UNREASONABLE. LOOK, I ALREADY CANNOT MOVE. YOU WIN”


“nope, not gonna happened mutt. you start the fight, i end the fight. our role has been decided since the start, blame your existence that looks like a good sandbag if you wanna blame someone”


“NOO..! SOMEONE, HELP! ..UGH!”



i ignore him and still punching him while mounting him


he already unconscious, but i still mob him while making him my sandbag



ah don't worry, i hold back and healing him with potion if he looks like he’s gonna die


even i would not be unreasonable to kill potential sandbag.. ah, looks like he can be useful as stress reliever. i’ll decide that as his role then


isn't that good? hey, hey ,is it good? not many people gets a position that close to me every time you know? are you crying? are you? ahh.. it must be from a tears of happiness. i see! you're glad, i’m glad too. let's work together from now on ok?



the woman that attack me is k.o in no time at all from my fast mofumofu and collapsed while panting hard



hmm? so weak. look at black cat girl, she can hold out longer than you, you know? aren't you ashamed losing to a younger kid? huh. useless


it seems like i heard wolf.. tuvalu saying something like “iguva, even you..” but i quickly ignore it


a wolf boy wants to join the fight, but seeing the result it seems he didn't dare to come



good choice boy, i was merciless to those that pick a fight with me. your action makes you live longer, you know?


some hot blooded idiot attack me while jumping. he speak flame something, but i ignore him and i send him flying into sky with my punch penetrating the roof


ahh it seems troublesome to hear his talk, so i send him flying fast



however


the problem is this old dwarf



“you’re, strong huh”


“i should say that lass. not many people can even fight with me when i’m serious you know?”



this guy is pretty troublesome to fight


he blocked my aim at vital point efficiently, and he's surprisingly nimble despite his age and short legs


although i surpass him clearly in strength, he’s clearly more experienced than me in combat



“still, it's strange”


“got some leeway to talk in the middle of fight, old man?



ignoring him, i start to stab him but he avoids it


because his hammer weapon is tattered he can't block most of my attack anymore



“no,no, that's not what am i talking about. your whole being is strange. your weapon,clothes,boots.. all of them made from some material that even i don't know. your strength is great, but it feels like your technique is not equal with your body.. it’s like..”


“you seems like you just created recently, or born? perhaps it's not correct terms but i feel like you're clearly younger than it seems”


“!”


“WHOA! careful, are you trying to kill an old man like me?”



i suddenly get irritated and attack him faster


what?


why do i feel some anger from one of his words?


it seems like it touched something inside me, but i cannot explain it clearly


feels like.. it's a door that shouldn't have been opened



thinking i should just end this soon, i unleash my strength and make a shockwave to blow him up


no matter how fast or nimble, if the area around him get blown up he would be forced to stop and his posture is broken



and


putting my sword beside his neck, i stare at him



“...”



“...”



we didn't talk for each other for awhile


sensing my irritation, the old man sighs and drops his weapon



“fine, i lost. it was a good match.”



hearing a clank he drops his weapon



no way, gordes lost?


although retired, his strength is accepted widely as a rank adventurer and even the king lost to him right?


ahh.. the muscle brained king of grandom always like strong people and hate to lose. he would never said that to someone weaker than him



so he’s a former a rank adventurer huh



hearing that i sigh


well this is a good experience. now i know i cannot rely on status and skill alone. if i have this much trouble with someone that is not even transcended, then reaching my goal would be impossible


after i start reaching domain of transcended, i probably gonna meet some people like iskandar.. though probably not at his level i would be died if i didn't get stronger soon



shit..


just like i thought, i don't have any choice but going into his place


aaa, someone just kill him already! dragon king, phoenix, goddess.. what are you doing? why allowed this thing to roam freely? ah but if he died i can't become stronger.. at least after he finished teaching me secret of transcending..



looking like i seems in trouble despite winning everyone start to confused


then, old man gordes start to talk while bowing



“lass, no, young lady. i’ll accept your job offer and i will become your exclusive blacksmith. from now on, i will only make weapon and equipment exclusively from your order”



hearing that, everybody start to surprised


old man gordes seems to be known as stubborn and never become a exclusive blacksmith of anyone


even kings of major countries has been rejected by him. so hearing him becoming exclusive blacksmith for someone is unheard of



“also, i apologize if i offend you in some way. everyone should have one or two things they didn't want anyone else to know. so i apologize for that”



realizing my irritation, he begun to apologize


well, whatever. i’m already not mad anymore



“in exchange, let me tend your weapon and armor. if there's a unique tools that you have like that machine doll, i can appraise them and telling you their functionally more than you know”



huh, so he was targeting that


i don't mind though. it's true i don't know much about how to use some tools i got from goddess place, like this dangerous black tube with something like mini black hole inside. yess let's just seal it for now. even i am not daredevil enough to use it


ah but if i desperate i might use it to threat iskandar. he probably knows its functionally right?


then not wanting to let gordes wait any longer, i start to speak



“I ACCEPT! FROM NOW ON, LIVE EXCLUSIVELY FOR ME, AND BECOME MY HAND AND EYES EXCLUSIVELY FOR ME! ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU MADE AND CREATE IS CONSIDERED THE SAME AS MY OWN. ANYONE WHO DARES TO CLAIM OR TAKEN THEM WITHOUT MY PERMISSION IS THE SAME AS TOUCHING ON MY OWN THINGS AND WILL RECEIVE NO MERCY. SHOULD THIS HAPPENED THEN THOSE IGNORANT FOOL WILL RECEIVE PUNISHMENT FROM ME PERSONALLY”



hearing that some people are getting scared, but some people actually get their eye shine instead and trembling in excitement



eh? why did anyone looks like they wants to get punished instead? i fail to comprehend


since i had gathered everyone's attention, i start to talk



“IT LOOKS LIKE ALL OF YOU HAVE GATHERED BECAUSE YOU HAVE HEARD MY PLAN. BUT I BELIEVE MOST OF YOU DIDN'T HEARD THE STORY FULLY”



everyone seems not surprised, i guess most of them already heard of it but not the details



“THEREFORE, I WILL START TO EXPLAIN. HOWEVER, REMEMBER THERE'S NO TURNING BACK ONCE YOU LEARN IT”


“IF ANYONE TRYING TO BLABBER IT MY GUARDIAN ROBOT OO-KUN WILL SENSE YOUR HOSTILITY AND KILLS YOU ON SPOT!”



they seems to pale. guess most of them know my robot ability. so convenient


well i tell them that i would start explain, but i didn't tell them everything actually. only the necessary part



“I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO SO I WILL BE NOT COMING BACK FOR AWHILE. HOWEVER, BE ASSURED THAT TOMORROW A MAN NAMED BERNARD WILL COME TO TEACH YOU EVERYTHING NECESSARY. THINK OF HIS WORDS AND ACTION THE SAME OF ME AND FOLLOW HIM”



they start to looked confused, but accepting it



“NOW, LET'S BEGIN BY EXPLAINING MY PLAN. I CALL IT..”



i clapped my hand



“THE FESTIVAL OF CHAOS”

 

-eh? robbery? no i ‘m just borrowing them.. without permision of course-



there's some commotion after i explained, but it became calm after some time


i guess, people can get used with even the worst situation given time



so..


i start to taking out countless money, treasure and weapons from thin air


they probably know what the money for, but asking what is the weapon for?


well, for my plan. making a lot of things from scratch is not gonna make it intime so i planned to only change them slightly later



where the money and weapons coming out? maa it's not important. thanks for my friend giving me a certain map of certain place, i teleport to there and the rest is you can probably guess


after pulling “out” a certain item to be used together with the weapon, everyone is surprised with it but i ignore them



later i told them that bernard will know what to do with them so i’ll ask them to make a certain “item” first and let him do the combining finishing touch


i told wolf.. tuvalu to buy the materials with this money . at first he is worried to go into town alone but i told him to bring the merchant that i met in the town i visited with bernard


he seems like a coward and having a piggy face, but after threatening him a little and taking his son and wife hostage, he accepts


eh? you're too cruel? haha dont worry. i returned them while saying i cursed them that they will die if he tries to run


of course no said curse exist. i only bluffing but he was too scared that he agrees



now then..


the plan is approaching the final phase



and tonight


preparing for the worst day in my life instead, i gather a few of the children


eh? why did that wolf woman is following me too? whatever


the black cat girl refuse to coming out and seeing me, so i got naughty and approach her instead while making a hand pose i use to her previously. she agreeably coming out then while holding tears


i bring the thugs that seems to not have anything to do to join me. they seems trying to running away with their own life but stopped by oo-kun



good job oo-kun! just keep your job okay. i need you to keep the guys here so they do their job okay?


ah, i managed to duplicate oo-kun too surprisingly. they end up being small, as big as hands though but their basic ability is similar


hmm is there any hidden requirement for this skill? even i didn't understand how it works completely



furthermore they all at lv 80 so it's enough to massacre.. keeping watch those guys


even gordes which is the strongest more than their lv won't be able to run if they start to mob him


he seems to not have any intention to run though. i hope he won't. he’s a capable person. i only saw his work once and it's not too far behind my current equipment


given time and material, he might be able to make better equipment


the small oo-kun end up being famous with children. perhaps i could sell fake ones of oo-kun to get some pocket money once this plan over



well then..


the piece is starting to be made


tomorrow, they would be spread all over the world and start to spread the “seeds”



once it bloomed, nobody can stop it anymore


the wave will come without anyone able to stopped it, and nobody will want to stop it..


except the villain in this story that will never expects it at all


a lot of despair, anger, hatred, and death will spread. but at the same time, a lot of hope,wish,dream will be spread further


a festival of chaos.. many wishes born from opposite feeling will be born. a contradiction, a orchestra performance



ahh..


splendid


a grand stage created just for you guys!


a life hanging in balance, a puppet that moves with all of their feelings


you don't have to worry


you don't have to think


you don't have to feel guilty


for our cause is just



now..


the festival will come soon


ready or not you guys are the actors in the stage


so dance. dance until your life is extinguished, dance until the whole world is getting mad. dance until your wish are fulfilled


the festival of chaos will start anytime soon, the flower is spreading, and the tree will bloomed to reach the sky


let the party begin



..though i need to focus on my chastity first


eh? what about the last time i died? i don't remember so that doesn't count!




-in the capital of abona-


-treasure room of royal capital-



hum hum hum


a guard is starting to move to his designated post and going to work today


what a easy job


all i need is to looked around, going forth and i get paid


my fourth daughter has been just born too, so this job is important to me


thinking it's going to be same as before i nonchalantly come inside the storeroom



however..


right when he try to go inside


something is wrong



“!?”



the door is opened without any lock


panicked, he start to looks inside


and then



“ah..ahh..”



he trembles



“AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!”



everything is gone!


no one, not even a single copper coin is left!


all the coin, treasure, weapon.. it all vanished like a thin air



but who is the culprit?


the only one able to take that much item is probably a space magic user


but the one that can use that magic can be counted on hand, furthermore a capacity that one can bring is limited


to stole that much treasure, and escape without detection.. don’t tell me, demons?


but demons have no use for human treasure. human weapon is significantly weaker than theirs too so there's no way it's them..


thinking he’s in despair since he definitely have to take responsible for it he had seen a piece of paper


written inside is



“the phantom thief kaito is here”



while confused since the paper is written in a language that he doesn't know of, he report to the king

 

-hero? such a troublesome notion-



“this is charlie, over. bravo, how is your condition?


“uhh this is tom..”



i start to yell


with a machined-like voice from the voice changer



“IDIOT! I TOLD YOU YOUR DESIGNATED NAME IS BRAVO! YOU WANNA GO HOME AS A EUNUCH? HUH?”



he seems complained a little, but returning to speak



“this is t..bravo, nothing here charlie, over”



good


thinking like that i speak inside my heart


while wearing some clothes like a black ops soldier with a mask, some people approached this place


this place, stone sentinel canyon. is the place of promised meeting with “him”


….



sword saint iskandar


someone that even his being is doubtful whetever he exist or not


debated as a fairytale or actual legend, his most famous tale is from being known as the one that fight the dragon king argevalt and the only one able to pushed him back


self proclaimed as the sword saint, his only distinguished feature is blazing red hair like a flame


just by said that you got trained by him is already can made you become someone famous, though nowadays mostly only scammer or bandit use his name


the rumor said all of the s rank adventurer have meet him at least once before, however they all denied it


though when asked to the said s rank adventurer what do they think about the sword saint, they all answered with same answer


“he’s a pervert” mutters them



...



now


the guys in black ops cloth is approaching


while bringing some “package” like a coffin, a total of four people



since i only have four of this costume i decide to bring the thugs here


of course, the thugs didn't know what is their purpose here


really, but this place only have a stone with weird arrangement. obelisk perhaps? its devoid of life and strange magnetism and white pattern is here and there


it's not like an alien or something is gonna coming out right?


..not an alien but a pervert gonna show up. yeah, i better met an alien..




“charlie, this is bravo. mind if i asked our mission again,over?”


“permission granted. what do you ask bravo?”


“why is it that we here charlie?”


“ahh i didn't tell you huh. we’re gonna capture the sword saint and make him spill out everything that he knows. failed to do that and at least bring him down together, over”


“over, so catch that sword saint huh… wait.. SWORD SAINT!? THAT SWORD SAINT ISKANDAR?”


“stop yelling bravo, or should i silence you forever, over?”



hearing that he still panicked



“of.. OF COURSE I PANICKED! ANYONE WHO PURSUE THE PATH OF SWORD DEFINITELY KNOWS HIM! AND.. YOU SAID HE WAS HERE!?”


“noisy, so what if he’s here? our main job is to detaining the universe most dangerous rabid animal, or failed to do that exterminate it. that harmful animal is more danger than its worth and better be off disappear inside the course of history as fairy tales for the good of all living being in the world”


“WHY SO MUCH HOSTILITY? HE WAS LIKE A HERO IN FAIRYTALES, ACTUALLY I IDOLIZED HIM TOO”



thinking while sighing, i start wanting to destroy this useless brat delusion about the so called hero



“now listen here, tom-kun. the thing called a hero is a piece of walking disaster. selfish, never listening anybody. they always come out too late when the villains already destroyed everything because it would make them looks so good inside the people eye. they wanted to looked so good in people eye because they're a bunch of narcissistic pervert that feels so good when someone else is dependant to them like a drug. in other words, without anybody to admire them they're just a useless incompetent dickless bunch and lose their own reason to existing and would become a trouble for somebody else like a neet or hikikomori. those dependable person in troubled time would become the most useless parasite in peaceful times. because they only know how to fight, no company would ever need to hire them and they will spend their days lazily without any future prospect. because they're so strong no police able to detained them and probably start to blame it’s society's fault instead of them. it seems like they’re going to become a villain but after saving people for so long they would become a bunch of dickless coward that not even dares to coming out from their room without anybody to expect them. and end up losing in front of the power of money and position and ends up waging their whole tail in front of those in higher position then ends their lives alone without anybody even cares of them. see, that's the reality of what you called a hero”



hearing that, tom starts to yell



“WHATS WITH THE DETAILED LIFEHOOD ABOUT THE HERO? ARE YOU PSYCHIC? SCARY! IT FEELS SO REAL THAT I DIDN'T DARE TO REFUTE. AND WHAT IS A COMPANY AND POLICE ANYWAY? STOP, DON'T RUIN MY IMAGES OF HEROES ANY FURTHER!”



saying that


tom-kun start to crying


ignoring him i start to look around


then


i heard a voice behind my back



“how cruel, i never called myself a hero. it's everybody arounds me that calls me that”


“!”



realizing he’s here, i point my ak-47 model gun to him


well it's just a fake model gun, but feeling is important, feelings!



“also, i'm not a neet or hikikomori. i used to have a proper job in japan, ok? though i haven't done them lately since i’m focusing on finishing that one game. what's it called? precure?”



speaking nonchalantly, he appeared from behind me


the thug seems surprised and muttering “it’s the real one” and didn't move



“hiya, long time no see? though we just meet one week ago you come exactly like you’re promised”



his appearance is like usual


slovenly, wearing wodden sword on right side and white dojo outfit


the only difference probably, his hair is disheveled like just waking up from sleeping



“even if i didn't come you would just nonchalantly kidnapped me like it's nothing right? also by pretending to played a game for little kids, you're trying to catch them off guard but actually you're playing the adult unofficial uncensored version doujinshi game full of completely different things from the main story that they're basically another works and pretend to not realize that they're basically completely different series”



hearing that, iskandar whistles



“you can read that much huh? i’m impressed. is this your true ability? or perhaps since you're being more prepared you can speak to me more nonchalantly without holding back?”



then i only replied



“if you read the common pattern of common eroge game protagonist it's nothing unusual. also you're the type that told to everyone else that your favorite type is a older woman with big boobs, but actually you're secretly dating a loli younger than you with a excuse like she will be a adult in few years”



hearing that he only smiled further



“that's partially correct, though i am not dating anyone right now. ah, also, a younger girl with modest average breast like in front of me is fine too actually. i have no unique preference or something like that”



then i start to reply his smile with a smile back


neither of us is laughing inside, though both of us looked so happy in outside “khukhukhu” “huhuhu” while laughing to each other


the thug group looked so confused saying things like “what happened?” “why did they get friendly all of sudden?” “strange, they're laughing but i don't feel glad at all” is what i hears


after laughing like that


i use my sword hidden inside the grass, and launch a strongest attack i can use now while pouring everything i got



“die”



releasing a photon like straight beam it can even pierce the heavens



*sfx*



piiiiing



then


he defends against the beam like it was nothing

 

-vs sword saint-



“this is a good attack. but you probably won't be able to hold out for long like this isn't it?”



speaking iskandar while stopped the beam coming out from my sword with one hand



ahh.. i know.


i know this won't be enough


i didn't use storage magic because it have a delay


it almost not made any difference, but even one second is fatal against this man


so i prepare various things beforehand


knowing that, i prepare another things from under my legs



“oh?”



what i’m letting out is a rpg like from jsdf one used


inside of a point blank range, i start to turn it on




KABOOOM




the sound of the explosion resounded



the rpg is a direct hit


this wasn't item from goddess place. it was the item i received from friend.


he said he got some free time before, so he nonchalantly made some things from his previous world


given to me because he never had any time to use it, i was grateful



after the explosion subsidized



“impressive, i never thought someone can made that thing given this world current technology”



he speaks like usual



“but that won't be enough to defeat me you know?”



i know that


i know how you won't be hurt at all even with this



but


my intention is not even to defeat you



“?”



starting to running away while taking back my sword, i take a distance from him


seemingly didn't understand why i am running away, iskandar start to walk normally



“fuh, interesting. i don't know what you planned, but”



seemingly amused, he walked while opening his hand like a child walking in the park



“whatever that was, let me try it”



ignoring him, i start to run to the nearest crevice



but


he was suddenly in front of me



“tsk”



fast like usual, with speed that i cannot follow at all



“oh? is it over already? did you give up on the game of tag?”



provoking him, i yelled while opening my jacket



“in your dreams!”



it was a full grenade. about everything that i carry



“!”



and i let them all fall




BLAAM




the area around me is exploded


in the midst of explosion, i moved forward



“ugh!”



survived from suicide exploding i got out from the explosion


but i’m not unscratched. if it's not because this clothes able to absorb some of the explosion i would probably died already despite my body spec


my body seems groggy all over. and i cough blood a little inside the mask



in the midst of that


iskandar still unharmed like usual


though his face seems like in bad mood



“...”



he look at me annoyingly


ara? is he, angry? it was quite rare



“that’s dangerous you know. you could probably explode into bits if something done wrong.”



hmm? so he was worried about me?


thinking like that, the crevice is below me


i cannot step back anymore but that's fine


after all


this is, where i wanted to go after all



“well whatever, our game of tags is ends here. you should probably realize our difference in power anyway”



saying that, he step closer to me..


one step, two step..



“i should probably start by teaching you how important one own life is. it's fine to be reckless if you're at my level. even if most of my body disappear or my heart getting broken is not gonna kill me after all.”



three step, four step..



“but..! you're still a human despite your body is based on some strong being. since you're not fully unleashed the potential, just an good attack in head or hearts and you die, just like another human being”



i know that, you don't need to remind me..


five step.. and he reach my place



“...”



i stare at him


then, he speak


while offering his right hand



“let’s go. there's so much that i need to teach you. it's fine, i won't do anything”



nope, not gonna believe it buddy



i’ve had enough of being treated like a brat


while thinking like that


i


...dropped my sword into the crevice



“? what are you doing?”



seemingly not understanding my action, he was wondered



well that's good


activating the magic words for the mana stone below, my sword is starting to shine inside the darkness



“!”



sensing the massive amount of mana, he probably realize the danger of what i am gonna unleashed right now


however, even if i fire it he would probably able to avoid it easily


that’s why…



“!”



i fall into the crevice


with my own will



-turning back time before meeting with iskandar-



*whoosh*



seeing the giant crevice in front of me, i start my plan



*crack crack*



pulling all of the mana stone i have, i start to grin


mana stone


it's a unique stone that can hold magic power


however it can only be used once and the magic power inside is disappear


acting like a disposable battery, it can be useful for mages


however, since its rare and only can be used once, it was not famous at all


i found a lot from the warehouse that i stole.. borrowed from


seems like that country is preparing for the usual war with the demons, so they prepared a lot of mana stone


while ignoring that their plan is in ruined now i start to look at one of the skill



one of the trump cards

that the swordmaster based on my body have, photon sword cannon


it basically explode a massive amount of energy and firing it like a grand cannon


well, basically like a cannon used in that space battleship anime. the one that is used to destroy a planet


firing it is no joke, any being in this world would probably pulverized if got hit


but the mp necessary is so massive. even the original swordmaster can only firing it once with full mp. there's no way my decreased lv can use it no matter how long.


though depend on how much the mp used it can become stronger without limit. wow, scary.


so that's where mana stone coming in


by specify the time i unleashed the skill, the skill will demand the magic point necessary


most people using it “now” because usually there's no point delaying it, but for me there is a point



by putting it alongside mana stones, it would absorb enough mana to blast it


but no matter how strong the attack, it probably won't be able to defeat iskandar if it's not hits


that's why



i will make him in a situation where he cannot avoid


seeing he was flying normally to my position, i suspect he can't use space magic. or can’t even bothered to learn one


so


i’ll use a bait to stop him


i’ll put him into a situation where he cannot move



needless to said


that said bait is already here all along



-back in current time-



“!”



i fall into the crevice



thats right



the said bait, is me


betting in a situation that he probably cannot let someone else die in front of him like usual protagonist in manga, he would definitely come


by protecting me, he cannot avoid the attack even if he wants to


by using all of his strength, he would protect even “me” the culprit



that's why


knowing he would come anyway if i’m in front of him, i can make this bet



…




*grab*


he suddenly grab me midair


oh, fast like usual.


but how do you block it


the light is shine so brightly



and



without any delay at all


my trump attack, the one that i cannot use with my own power “photon sword cannon” unleashed its true power



PIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII



a gigantic pillar of light is bursting from the planet


if it was a direct hit it would probably burning the planet surface and no living being probably able to live


because it was directed into the sky, no casualties happened


except for “two” people down there



“GUWOOH! UWOOOOOOH!?”



fending its attack desperately with one hand iskandar stopped the giant pillar of light while embrace me in one side


his hand is wounded, and his whole body getting scarred


strangely i’m not hurt at all. did he pour his defense magic to me?



“AAARGGGHHH!”



seemingly focused, he unleashed his power to push back the pillar of light


but he’s getting pushed back


if this keeps up, he would probably the one get killed instead



well, he could probably fend it off if using two hand, but a “protagonist” like him will never abandon me and rather choose to die together


i’ll pass if that really gonna happened though. i rather bite my own tongue and dies before he does



“GNNNH! GUUHHHHH!”



seemingly concentrated for a while his mana energy is rising


and instantly



“HAAH!”



he wears a golden armor with dark pattern and lion in the chest


it was only in instant, but i was definitely seeing it



“WOOOOOH!”



unleashing the power that his golden armor had, he pressure back the pillar of light


along with a shining golden light



and then



KABOOOM



the pillar and iskandar aura clashed with each other


with vibration that seems like being able to destroy the world they clashed


after some time, the pillar of light is running out and the attack stopped


in midst of that



“....*haa*”



is floating a man with red hair and dojo shirt carrying me


his armor disappear, seems like he only used it when he’s serious


the gravity around the area is messed up, and i feel like my body is kinda floating


his dojo outfit all torn up and the above is exposed in burn



though after some time passes, his wound is starting to close


amazing, so this is the ability of transcended? or iskandar is special



*glare*



he seems to be glaring at me, like trying to say something but not doing it


floating while carrying me like a baggage, he throws me into ground


while i’m still wearing special ops suit


like this, it would be like a joke scene instead of romance. haha, take that



“...”



he stare at me harshly


how nice, you should made that face more often


seeing someone calm is irritating me. looking at them panicked calm me down


and then



*BUMP*



owww!



he punch me in the head

 

-yes i’m being stupid sorry-



“were you always this stupid? or did you indeed have no brain since the beginning?”



starting to sermon me, i was sitting in seiza in front of him


huh? why did this happened? i only want to make his smug face disappear



“that attack, did you not even think what would happened if i’m not here? in the worst case that it was directed on this planet instead aboveground, all of living beings in surface here would be died! including you!”



yeesh, i know. it was one of the best skill that swordmaster have anyway.


but i ignored it and use it anyway. since i wanna see this face that he made


i actually was hoping it to kill him too.. well maybe not. perhaps a little bit?



kukuku he was totally panicked. it was worth endangering this whole planet to seeing that


thinking like that, he start to bump my head again



owwww..



don't hit me too much. i would probably gone really brainless at this rate!


it might not hurt but it feels like it’s hurt



“you still thinks some useless things aren't you? it looks like you're not reflecting at all”



i am reflecting, deeper than the ocean and wider than the sea


i reflect why i didn't use more mana stone and intending to feeding it more power next time


that way, you would disappear while bringing along this whole planet together. it was a reasonable sacrifice, yup.


seemingly given up, he start to scratch his head



“i see, it was probably your whole very being.. or probably it was in your very nature to be this reckless. man, what a troublesome thing . if only it wasn't because of my promise with goddess



his usual flirty attitude was gone, is this probably his true personality


fuh he wasn't really like a main character anymore, more like a naggy mother



“anyway, forget about that. more importantly”



“?”



he start to touch my mask and gone back to his flirty attitude



“since you're being naughty so much, i should just punish you right? my naughty kitten?”



……



yeep, he did not change at all


i thought i manage to surprise him, but all of that is gone back like usual


but! i already know this. so i played my plan B



“wait!”



seemingly heard me he stopped



“before that. i got a gift for you”


“oh? a gift?”


“yep, its what you have been waiting for so long. the gift that you have been searched all along”



seemingly excited i talked to him



“pfft, hahaha. you really like to tease me around huh? just beat the bush and show me. or you're gonna showing it to me right now?”


“ah don't worry, the gift is in the back”


“?”



approaching the three thugs position i coming to them


when i looked at them


is those three crawling like a shrimp



…..



thinking that they not move, i approached them thought they're dead


kicking them in butt one of them start to responded



“WAUUGH!”



the thug surprised, and the other follow fit



“huh? is it over?”


“i thought we’re gonna die”



ahh, i see..


seeing such a massive pillar of light and iskandar serious mode must put some serious trauma to those that only have a miniscule amount of lv compared to him


even i that looked at it directly probably don't have enough courage to do that stunt again


i won't use it again… not so much


ignoring them, i continued



“bring the “goods” here. the time to use it has come”



looking at me, the thug tom replied



“sir, yes, sir! i will bring the goods immediately”



oh? surprised he’s getting obedient i was impressed


perhaps i should do that attack one or two times more if i know he would be this loyal


bringing the other two along, they carry a “coffin” each


…..



“so, what is this?



getting curious, iskandar asked


the hoodlum is getting stiff seeing iskandar directly, but i smacked him



“WHAT WAS THAT FOR?”



just go prepare it if you are done carrying it. you can ask for his autographs later


seems tsk-ing he doing it anyway


i suppose he still need some discipline



*cough*



like putting a performance, i show it to iskandar



“NOW, HERE IS THE MOMENT THAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR! A MOMENT OF TRUTH!”



*iskandar applauded except the thugs*



“WHAT WAS INSIDE HERE IS A DREAM OF ANY MEN, AND AT THE SAME TIMES SOMETIME UNREACHABLE, SOMETIME IRRESISTIBLE


“BUT! WITHOUT A DOUBT YOU WILL LIKE IT. YOU'RE NOT A MAN IF YOU HATE IT AND YOU’RE CANNOT BE CALLED WOMAN IF YOU REFUSE IT”


“HERE IS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH, OPEN IT IN 3..2..1.. START!”



a bright light coming out from inside


seeing it with excitement, the guys looked at the “coffin”


and what's inside there



“...”



“MMPH! HMMPH!”



lies a black cat girl half nude tied like a food served into platter



……



everybody froze



huh? what happened? this isn't the reaction i expected for


seeing such a delicious treat, should everyone supposed to say “itadakimasu, or something like that?”


well whatever, i didn't expect this reaction but next one would probably kill them



*cough*



“SINCE EVERYONE SEEMS TO HAVE A WEAK REACTION, WE WILL MOVE TO THE NEXT ONE”


“THE NEXT ONE HAS THE ALLURE OF ADULT AND THEIR CHARM. ONE LOOK AND YOU WILL GET SMITTEN. TWO TIMES AND YOU WILL BE ENSNARED. THREE TIMES AND YOU WILL BE TRAPPED FOREVER”


“PLEAASE WELCOME OUR GUEST, MS IGUVA!”



i opened the next coffin



a wolf lady wearing sexy outfit like a ribbon used to wrap a gift is there


while saying “iyaan, dont look at me”


everybody still frozen



“huh? no reaction at all? to think i should use my trump card this fast! lets see”



“THEN NEXT IS THE FINAL ONE, OUR VIP GUEST AND THE BEST REWARDS THIS TIME”


“HAILED FROM THE LONG DISTANT LAND, A IRRESISTIBLE CHARM THAT CAN EVEN KNOCKED OUT MEN AND WOMAN ALIKE, CROSSING THE BARRIERS OF GENDER WIDE AND TALL. EVEN SURPASSING THE DEPTH OF DEEP SEA AND THE WIDE OF THE UNIVERSE”


“THEE SUPER HEAVYWEIGHT CHAMPION OF MOE, PLEASE WELCOME MISS REKS”



opening the coffin its figure is shown



“HMM! MMH!”



tied the same like the cat girl, but with more exposure


it was the fox boy that i yelled before



“....”



those guys is becoming more expressionless more


though the smallest thug seems to give a thumb up


hmm? i don't understand, but congratulations. so i reply him back with thumbs


medetashi medetashi, everyone happy i am too


thinking like that


iskandar approach me


while smiling, he made a pose like holding his index finger


and..



*BLAM!*



getting snapped hard with his finger flick, i collapsed


his last words that i heard is “are you stupid?”

 

-interlude shit it all fucked up-



ahh dammit, it was all fucked up


hey there


my name is tom



being known as the leader of the group of trio of adventurer known as “sword savior” we joined the adventurer guild in hope to become famous and perhaps getting known like heroes in olden times


because the recent hero party is based of three people, we thought as three people team we can become famous too



however, unlike our cool name, life is hard everywhere even as a adventurer.


we did not meet the quota of the finished quest, and our spending money is keep running out too


begin to desperate, we start to bully newbie and harass them for money. we even start to mug from townspeople too


thanks to that the adventurer guild banned us for entering and our permit is revoked



but we already got used to this town, and our victim already paid a protection money regularly to us


since it's more convenient, we stayed in the town as thugs and begin to forget our original goal



but


our lives is changed ever since we meet that “devil”


we overheard that some newbie adventurer just sold a lot of monster material at once prior to joining


furthermore, she was the one that write the infamous picture book called bl doujin


even us who is a common thug have heard about that book. one of our victim that is a woman desperately trying to protect that book with her own body.


she even said she didn't mind if we rob everything that she have and stripped her naked, but that book is cannot given


given her determination and unnatural bloodlust , we decided to given up on the book and compromise for all of her money instead


she looked so glad and hugging and kissing the book like a treasure. what the hell, is such a plain and thin book is worth that much?



later we find out the price of that book is worth more than her money


dang, we’re been had. i should just taken that book by force if i knew



knowing the woman inside the guild is the author, her profit must be immeasurable right? jackpot, we can finally earn some easy money



at least, we have that delusion once..


i never want to remember what happened after that.



we got threaten to death to follow her, and almost got killed by the people of our hometown


finally thinks it's over, she kidnapped us to somewhere else!



we tried to run, but the metal doll catch us again. damn metal junk ! i would have a nightmare with a metal for awhile


she made us wear strange things. she said it's fine to not wear it but if anything happened to our lives we cannot complaint


of course! how can we complaint if we dead!


so we have no choice to wear it begrudgingly


we have to bring some coffin like things too. shit! this isn't included in the contract! you better paid us more



…..



we come into a strange place with a lot of standing stones



…



thinking she was gone quiet when we reach the center of place, i can't hold on the atmosphere any longer and asking her what are we gonna do here


she told us that we gonna catch the sword saint



i start to doubt my hearing but unfortunately it seems like it was true


wait a minute, how did you know him anyway? i thought he was a fairytale told to everyone that aspired to become swordsman


i cried hearing her reply and destroyed my childhood dreams. damn you! you better take responsibility for defiling me



thinking like that a man suddenly show up from our back


from his appearance there's no doubt about it


that man, is the one that known in legends!



the only thing different is his clothes. its vastly different from the story


i panicked, but they start to talk like a good acquaintance and she start to provoking him


how can you talked to him like that? is she perhaps actually more amazing than i thought?



then..


a burst of light is exploded in front of sword saint


not finished, there's suddenly a sound of explosion there and there


i did not seeing them all clearly because it happened so fast



huh? since when did they disappear?


ah found them.


whoa, how did they go that far already?


their shadow disappear in the middle, but after that



a giant massive pillar of light on different scale than previously is shot


i only panicked and start to hide


there's a loud voice and the surrounding area is even started to flying


thinking to every gods that i could prayed, i swear to become a better person if i survived



….



…



..



is it over?


the noise is over but i still didn't dare to get up


thinking to just burrowed inside earth forever i suddenly got kicked



oh, what is it again?


not waiting for me to recollect my composure she start order me around


….


i don’t know what happened


i don't know what to do



but..


seeing that pillar of light


and sword saint condition with tattered clothes


i realize something is happened



probably a battle that is unimaginable for us common human is done here


something that can be written in history book have been done in such amount of little time



and


the only thing in my mind after i reply



“sir, yes, sir! i will bring the goods immediately”



that's it


i want to have nothing to do with those freaks things anymore


i will finish the job quickly and be obedient like a dog


i already given up trying to become like the heroes


heroes? hah. they can just do whatever they want and get involved with those natural disaster in front of me


nothing good comes from getting involved with guys like this.


once this is over, i would go home and confess to michel and have a child and working normally, blacksmith whatever



i don't care anymore


no matter how much live you have, being with those freaky being is too much


ignoring the bad premonition i have, i keep hearing some curse in my dream later tonight with that woman voice



“death flag,death flag,death flag,death flag,death flag”

.


shut up, will you?

 

-an idiot is heree-



oww..



starting to wake up, i looked at my surrounding


it seems like a hospital room or nursery room


while i'm still wearing special ops suit



huh? where am i?


lets see..


to begin to understand where i am, i start to remembering the previous event


…



at first


i thought to myself


perhaps the reason iskandar is like that is because there's no real heroine around him


that's why he was desperate enough to even sexual harass the villain



so i thought


why not just made his heroine then?



then


i got a idea


gathering the preference and fetish of anyone, i gather three different fetish together


i thought of adding a old man or legs fetish, but i have no time



by gathering three different “heroine” potential i start to make them seduce iskandar


if he got his own heroine, there's no need to harass me further


yep yep there's no need to thank me, for i am your cupid of love



while you guys are mesmerizing each other, i can just be trained normally while being hailed as cupid of love


impressed with my own idea, i start them immediately


but unfortunately i got the infamous reverse blade strike using finger flick instead.


what did i do wrong? umm does this means he’s impotent? maybe he only pretend to be playboy to hide his impotence?


thinking some weird various things i heard a voice



“i got a feeling you're thinking about something rude, but i have already getting used of it”



…



he’s here!


bringing some apples cut like a bunny, iskandar nonchalantly enters the room


entering without barging, it's obvious your intention is no good since the start!




“haha, its fine. i haven't done anything to you yet. see, your clothes is still the same as before right?”



“yet” you said! i won’t miss that, bastard


you think i can get taken advantage of by a sweet talk? and reduce my guard? think again


by saying yet, that means you're gonna delayed things that is inevitable for ero harem protagonist!



i’m not going to give up, you asshole


try to look for a crack all you want, you won't get my heart even if you can take my body by force!


if you dare to touch me even by a single strand of hair anymore, i would destroy this world! creating supernova and big bang! and bring you down together with everyone else !



hmm? why didn't i think to suicide you said? hah, yeah right. everybody can just go die and i’ll still survive! i would escape to goddess place, making some spaceship somewhere whatever. as long as i can guarantee my safety after blowing up this whole planet together with him


goodbye, all of the unpleasant memories here. goodbye, my chastity.


i absolutely going to take revenge for you guys, no matter how long. just watch!



“hello, why silent treatment? if you keep getting quiet i might attack you, you know. making such a seductive pose like that”



yeah yeah i know you're the type that would even see a girl pee or shitting in front of them and think they're adorable!


if you thought making a thinking pose while wearing black ops suit is attractive, go check your head in brain doctor. and go see the thinker statue all the day!


ignoring my problems, he continue



“you don't have to worry with those guys. i have already returned them by gouging some of the land and strengthen them so it wont broke utill they reach the destination”



ah right, i forgot about those guys



“seems like you forgot. you better at least remember their face. a comrade that following you even to this place is more precious than you thought.”



uhh i actually kidnapped them and forcing them to come against their own will though?


..well except for that one woman



“so”



sitting in my bed, he start to approach me



“where do we start?”



obviously trying to make a seductive face, he speak without any reserve



fuck it.



ahh i got annoyed, ahh i’m really annoyed.


i almost lose my reason and trying to destroy this world forgetting my own safety at one point


if i use all of those unknown thing from goddess place, some of them probably succeed in destroying everything?



“do you want to ask me question? do you want me to personally training you? or ”



making a pose that seems like it touched my lips, he continues



“you want me to be rough? or gentle?”



….


…


……



kill


kill him


KILL IT


die


die


die


die


DEAD


rough him up


cough him up


destroy him


put his head into gutter


splash his finger into shithole


cut his bottom and skewer it into crow feed


erase his penis with the full power of photon cannon


everything else, just let it rot and spread it into every different place in universe!


break him apart


his soul,his mind,his existence


even throwing it into ten ascension of hell is not enough


even by him suffer and regret his existence is not enough



more


make him regret he was ever born


make him regret he was ever exist


suffer.. break.. crushed


reincarnate into all being of karma, suffer and die again


born into a shit, born into a cockroach, born into unrecognizable things


even if you speak your suffering you won't be forgiven


even if you beg for mercy you still won't stop suffer


tortured, pushed down, drown into the unimaginable things that gonna happened to you



and laugh


when you get pushed into limit you will gone mad!


even if you gone mad you will not reach salvation


inside the maelstrom of suffering, even your soul won't reach a salvation


trample you, destroy you



…



while i was in the middle of cursing


he place his hand in my mask



“isn't it time to stop teasing me and show me your face? seeing your pose is attractive, but combining it with your varying face is gonna make me more happy”



….



hah!


so you want to see my face huh?


bring it



actually i already prepared


it was my last, and most trump card. plan C!


the final and innermost defense line of humanity


if i fail, then i give up.


that means he was more perverted than any being exist, even orc or goblin with their propagation ability pales compared to him!


against that sort of creature, there's nothing i can do


boil me, bake me. i cannot do anything anyway



but don't think i will forget


i will live in humiliation, and will never ever forget this grudge


even if your family is reincarnated million times, even if i break apart and my soul disappear


i would return from depths of hell to exact this grudge



so be prepared


for the final act that become the last silver thread for humanity


is it salvation? hope? or a depths of hell



pandora box, released


now the time had come for you to see the world


come out, my trump card



i summon you!



….



“….”



he was speechless when i opened my helmet


a smell more stink than canned herring


a face muddle with a unrecognizable black mud all over the body


all sort of trash everywhere coming out when i open my helmet


like this, it was even unrecognizable if the creature in front of him is even human


my current state is probably like a smelly black lump with a pair of eyes



fufu, that’s right


my final plan, is reversed cinderella plan. i call it (reversed) beauty plan!



fufu, are you surprised? i bet you surprised are you?



that's right


no one wants a ugly person


be it villain or heroine, as long you're a beauty anyone would pursue you


ahh, it was a sin to become beautiful indeed. like they said, beauty is a sin



so


deciding to take advantage of that, i changed my appearance drastically



….



iskandar seems looking at me with blank look



haha, take that!


even you must be not expecting this huh


i was thinking of scarring my face and body all over, but healing magic would made it useless


trying to change my gender with magic is not efficient enough. there's still a possibility his perverseness is transcending gender



so..


i’ll just become the most ugly girl in the world!


let's put aside whatever i am even a human being at this point is doubtful or not, but this is definitely working



huhu, so take that you ero protagonist


if i’m doubtful even as a human anymore even you would feel disgusted and didn't wanna to even look at me right


so cry, suffer, despair


forget about me, the villain and find the heroine


i’m sure there's one, the world is fast after all. if you didn't find one how about i look for you? ahh i can try old man gordes or oo-kun next time to try if he got that kind of fetish


fuhahaha



victory feels good



….



….



actually, just hurry up and lose interest of me already!


i can block my sense of smell and pain with my skill, but it still feel gross.


especially now that i inhale the outside air after so long. i felt dizzy already from getting cooped up inside that tight suit with all kind of unrecognizable trash


ah there's even a bug and worms coming out from my suit. i’m kinda afraid to look at my current state of body



no wonder i feel kinda light headed, did they made me into their nest? ew..


bear with it a little my body! as long as i can be free from this protagonist!


crap, i'm feeling anemic from blood lost. just how much they nest inside of me..



then


he grabbed my shoulder



…



he made some serious expression for awhile


then



“pfft..”



he start to laugh



“BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!”

 

-is it hell? no it’s probably affection-



he can't stop laughing for awhile



“HAHAHAHAHA! SERIOUSLY, JUST HOW MUCH YOU ACTUALLY HATE ME?”



eh? this reaction is unexpected.


i thought he would feel disgusted and stay away from me



after making him pale and scared like seeing a ghost, i would threaten him that i will keep haunting him until he teach me secret of transcending


at least that's the plan



“HAHAHAHA! I GOT USED FROM COUNTLESS WOMAN THAT KEEP MAKING ADVANCE TO ME! BUT THIS TREATMENT IS THE FIRST! TO THINK, YOU WOULD GO THIS FAR! AHAHAHA”



yupp, i cannot comprehend him at all


i give up in communicating, hey e.t, return this guy to your home planet wouldn’t you? it's impossible for two completely different species to communicate each other. separate our world with your separation barrier, don't let even a bug slipped out ok



seemingly done laughing, he start to look at me with tears in face


ah crap, i got a more worse problem than worrying about it now.



uuu..


i can’t hold it!



“kh.. huhu. you, really are..”



he seems to want to touch my cheek



ugh..


but i am not paying any attention at the moment!


that’s because..



*BLEAAARGH*



i puked


right into his face



…..



“.....”



“.....”



we stare each other in silence with each other


he was wet all over, his smile is gone, and i still feel sick so my face is probably pale


well my expression is unreadable because of this much dirt and trash



then


he start to smile a little



“....”



different from his previous smile which looked like from his feelings, this one is cold enough that i can feel some anger


umm, yeah. if you stare like that it would broke your character you know. is it fine, eroge harem protagonist?



“...”



uh if you only gone quiet i don't know you know. are you gonna yell? or are you gonna hit me? but i won't apologize! it was your fault since the beginning. blame that galge game that you played ! reflect your whole being! and die while being in pain!


thinking like that, he grabbed me like a luggage forcefully



whoa, at least treat me better? i refuse princess carry, but can't you carry me piggyback like a sick person?



…



i got tired while struggle in vain while he bring me to another room


hey hey, are you really gonna attack me? in this condition? with something that's even barely human? is your perverseness even transcended any living being too?


thinking like that, the room he bring me made me think otherwise



“....”



it was a room with giant big washing machine


it's so big that it can probably hold a person inside


is the owner a giant or something? why it's so big



not letting me speak at all, he start to strip me and remove my costume and everything



you bastard, are you unable to hold back your libido anymore?? i knew it, i knew this horny sexual beast is actually taking pleasure with those which is not a human anymore. aa..! i apologize, your preverness is already transcend any realm of possibility and imagination! your taste is for those being not even can be called for something anymore and called “the thing”. i’m sorry for not expecting it! i’m sorry for underestimate your preferences! yeah, it’s my fault for not knowing the depth of fetishme! shit!”



with no hesitation at all, he throws me inside the washing machine and close the tray


while getting dazed, i realize what he was gonna do



oi,oi, stop. human didnt work like that, you know what happened if a cat is put into a washing machine right? i thought you had that much common knowledge at least.



but he ignore me and start to click some button



aaa..! shit.. shit! why you! you! this is why lazy people that doesn’t want to clean their own laundry is annoying. they thought everything can be washed with a washing machine and didn't even think that it can be actually washed inside or not! thanks to your carelessness, how many pet did you think had been tortured inside home electronic convenience? you must be the type that clean half assedly the turtle and forget to return it into aquarium and it got washed away into drains!, putting a cat into microwave because you thought they can be dried instantly! are you an idiot, huhh? what do you think a pet is? 101 101 ! there's an abuse here! a violation of the rights of all animal and pet. call the association of pet lovers! even a unrecognizable living creature have the right you know! the right of living, place, and commodity! if you can't do it then don't keep it in the first place! it’s because of people like you that the world is becoming such a dangerous place! where’s our right as abused pet go? did you throw away your sympathy somewhere else? ahh stop! dont click it i beg you, i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry! i was just kidding, i’m only 99,99% serious. look, there's still some left so you can return me back your sympathy right? aang, FUCK-THIS-SHIT!



only able to mutter some curse, i lost consciousness amidst the washing sound



-a hour later-



…..



i survived..


i didn't even want to remember what he has been done to me



it's a miracle i survived, but now i know how a washed dirty clothes feel!


my pain sense is turned back on because of the shock and my wound aches all over because of the water and soap


inside my head is more messy than the pain, i looked like a fish getting washed ashore



like this, i would probably traumatized to the point that i can't wash clothes using electronic anymore


that's an experience i don't wanna get,dammit, thank you very much! i would definitely learn some daily livelihood related magic!


thinking like that, he open the valve and checking me



“...”



i can’t move and i don't wanna move


i’ve had enough with him and this place


curse him, shipped him into a can food for every prisoner in the world, and put the remains in trash can whatever



if i saw him right now i would be pissed off beyond anything but i still cannot done anything to him


he stripped everything from me, be regarding the right of living ,human and even my will!


i wanna sulk inside a house and disappear from society. yeah, it's probably better than seeing him



then


he pulling me out gently and putting me down into floor


after that, opening a bottle my wound was recovered


is this… elixir? i guess it's not strange knowing he was acquaintances with goddess



but


it cannot heal my heart despite its effectiveness



“...”



i put my hand to close my eyes


it's pathetic


i don't want anyone to see me like this


my eyes looked tired because i keep crying inside that machine



rather than because of the pain, it's from the helpless feeling of cannot do anything


for some reason magic is not usable at all in this place, any battle skill is useless against that machine material too



if anyone seen i’m crying i would feel depressed enough that blowing everything around will not be enough


especially being seen by the one that made me feel this helplessness! i got depressed and pissed off enough of my whole lifetime of stock in one day


i didn't cover my body at all and it's exposed but at this point i don't care



i.. just want to get out from this place..



…



after that


he put a towel on me



“sorry”



saying with apologetic face, he said to me



“i got too far in teasing you. now that i think about it, i guess it wasn't right to forcing you inside that machine and making you cry like that. i’m sorry, word is probably not enough”



it's too late dammit!


what am i gonna do with this anger then? this pain? this tears?


cannot holding it back, i keep spewing abusive words to him



“...”



he keeps quiet despite my abuse


i guess he’s really relenting, but i cannot stop and i don’t wanna stop


while spewing abusive words, i didn't even realize i was still crying this whole time


like this, i can only keep yelling until i got tired and sleeping in spot

 

-interlude i guess i done too far-



hoo


it's been a long time since it happened right?


sensing someone else reach the level cap after 50 years make me excited



-1000 years ago-



i was summoned into this world by the goddess


she explained that i got summoned accidently and did not summon me by purpose


she said she wanted some companion to talked to because she was lonely that her children leaving her and her wish probably accidentally summon me


i accept it since i was thinking “why not?” because this is another world after all


the goddess smiled while thanking me


looking into her face


my heart is beating fast



….



time passed


it's already 300 years since then


the goddess give me a potion, said to be eternal youth potion left behind by her creator. told to her that only use it to someone she can trust fully


she said it would made the user near immortal and unaging like but still can die if keep received wound severe enough or destroyed without a trace


at first, she warned me many times that using it could made me live a live that is not a human anymore



but i drink it without hesitation


then with my half immortality the concept of time is getting lost, ever since then i got close to her


and before i know it i enjoyed my time with her


i spend a lot of time inside her house.


we would never get bored too. the scenery can be changed so it can be looked like its no different from outside.


i can change it into the scenery in the middle of tokyo too, with a lot of people coming and going


apparently the time flow in here and earth is different. spending hundred year here, only one year had passed in the earth


but i don't have any intention to return. not right now at least


my parent already died in traffic accident, and i hate being a burden in orphanage


besides


i choose to be here by my own will



then


she was bringing me a camera-things like too. but looks more advanced and can create photo instantly with quality not different from actual scenery. apparently left behind by her creator, i asked is it fine to use


she only make a naughty smile “keep it a secret okay?” to her already long dead creator


my face is getting red but i hide it from her



love? no, we probably already surpass that relationship already


to the point that i can’t imagine i would begin to separating from her


thinking that we can be forever like this, i start to forgot to return into my world


….



occasionally i have seen goddess made a sad face


when i asked what's wrong, she keep replied it's nothing but i know the reason


it’s her three children


although she didn’t shown it i know she was worried about them


but since it's their own decision to separate, the goddess probably holding back to not meeting them until they’re coming back themself



however


even though it's only slightly, maybe occasionally


her face that she makes, is unbearable


her sad face that she have, is painful


i don't like it


i don't want to see it anymore



so i decided


to convince her children to coming back to her


and making her happy



…



one day


the chance is coming


apparently some people with lv cap have shown up


because this is the first time it happened, goddess seems confused what to do


she can telling them directly how to increase their level after this, but it won't do any good if she made a mess by descending into the world like she want


when goddess descent, it's always a big problem that relate to the fate of the world anyway


thinking this is a chance, i offered to descent to the world instead


i have learn the knowledge to break the limit from her so i can teach it to them


though unlike my expectation the goddess refused to let me go


when i said that she was starting to locking me in my room



ahh


i see..


it was my fault


having coming into her life when she was just been left alone, she probably cannot bear if i disappear from her life too



so


i start to make a plan


…



“....”



okay, she was sleeping


i was apologizing to her, saying i would cook her otherworldly food and never talk about leaving anymore


she looks like she just cried, but she accept my offer happily


because it's the food unique to this world, she eats it happily


looking at her eating face is always fun,but i can't keep staring her


haha, you always can’t hold back when it comes to sweets don’t you



“...zzz”



once she was sleeping i start to use a unique device to her


it was a device to take certain memories.

banned as one of the tools that she told me to never used it i used it anyway


that's because, this is more important


taking away memories about me, i start to prepare


using the technique of soul transfer, i move my soul into new body


apparently i can change some minor details like hair color or scar so i used red hair, and making the face older too


my appearance has been greatly changed from before.


ah crap, with this much modification would it be alright?


but i’m already too far to change it back. the goddess would wake up anytime soon and she would be surprised to find a stranger inside her house


after done preparing, i finally have a lv 1000 body


my old body? i burned it away. i have no need for it anymore anyway



then i start my move


changing her observation device to ignore me no matter my position


taking some basic things that can be useful


erasing trace of me, i was finally able to descent to the world


to convince her children


so that the goddess won't make that face anymore



….



i know


i know this isn't exactly a good idea


since she was lonely, i should just stay with her and she probably forgot her loneliness eventually



but


i can't allow it


i can't allow her to make such a sad face occasionally


even if it's just slight i don't want to


even if she didn't realize it herself it's fine


i.. would definitely made her happy



so


getting pretty excited too with the first time journey into another world i descended into the world


…


from there, much things happened


i start my journey and realize various things


apparently the third child gorgon is often hides herself so it's almost impossible to found her without the help of other mythical beings


so i decide to leave her for last


i tried to find the second, phoenix. but from what i heard from goddess she probably disguised as human or demi human and made a brothel somewhere


i decide to find the first kid, argevalt instead


the second? well, yeah.. searching for that place might be too much for someone like me that lives as a student in japan. needless to say, i never holds hands with girl either


don't call me a coward, call it a strategical retreat!


uhh anyway


he was more unreasonable than i thought


he only interested to hear anybody who drinks with him or defeat him in fight


since drinking is impossible for me, i choose to fight


the result.. it’s obvious, i lost.

despite me having such abnormal body, he was the strongest in battle power among mythical three. furthermore he was created dedicatedly by goddess and have far more battle experience than me


fortunately it seems i’m still half immortal. it seems like the potion is tied with my whole being itself rather than my body so i survived


since he was in good mood that someone able to fight him for this long he spare me


like this, i realized that i need to get stronger so he will listen to me


…


after i lost i begin to thinking how to defeat him


realizing i probably cannot defeat him alone i gather comrade to fight


however nobody able to hold even a finger flick from me. they all end up almost died or in critical condition


i’m in dilemma, but i realized


didn't the goddess said there's some people with lv cap?


if trained well they might able to get high lv enough to helping me in fight


deciding my move i start to find them


…



i found two of them and start to be friendly with them


a lancer girl named rufa and brawn warrior named bonso


those who saw us is surprised with our strength and start to make a tale about us


a story of us saving a certain country, defeating dangerous monster, and me.having such incredible sword skills and calling myself sword saint


i know, i got carried away while practicing drinking and calling myself sword saint while drunk. but please don't laugh at me! not those two too!


why did i got drunk? well i thought i should train my alcohol tolerance so i can challenge argevalt in drinking

the result is horrendous though. i can't even stay sober from one bottle



after spending some time with them we begin to think of us as comrade, not just master and student


using one of knowledge from goddess, i can open up a portal into another world dungeon


its unknown where it was connect to. but the experience there is noticeable for us that already lack any enemies in this world


training in place that even i thought we’re gonna die everytimes we become stronger


….



some years has passed


i have reach around lv 1300 and my comrade is around 700 and 800


along the years to come we found another comrade that reach lv cap. a magician iffy and archer borneau


after transcending, they become a invaluable help for us


like this, we probably can defeat or convince the dragon king of our strength



however


the timing is bad


apparently the third child, gorgon has been killed


we come to him when his bad mood reach the peak, and he start to massacre us


my attempt to convince him was unheard, once he start rampaging he was unstopped


at this rate, the world itself might be destroyed by his fits of rage


thinking to fight to protect this world, not just for goddess we all brace ourself



the battle is harsh and long but i finally manage to stop him


however, the price is too harsh


iffy got eaten by him, and borneau trying to run away and got killed by his breath


bonso holds out till the end, but when the fight is over he died breathing his last



and rufa..


to made sure i win, she kissed me in the cheeks and using a sacrifice skill to hold argevalt down



that’s unfair rufa..


it's more cruel than leaving me alone and died


but thanks to her sacrifice i got a chance


using everything i got, argevalt finally manage to be wounded badly and regain his sanity


he retreated secluded deep inside the place that later known as demon territory to heal his wound



….



after the battle is over, i got famous and known as the sword saint


after visiting my comrade family and making a grave i got a lot of proposal


i'm still sad over my comrade death but after some time passes i can accept it readily. perhaps it's because i become weak


marrying a lot of woman, i become known as harem king but that's the story of another time



however


live with a lot of wifes are not as good as you thought


the woman are demons


looking at me like a rare steak, they start to fight to decide who is the official wife for me


among their bickering and insult they even start to make a plan to hindering each other. some of my wife even gravely injured from internal dispute



what is this?


is the woman in another world must be this extreme?



eventually


i become scared and running away leaving them


hiding inside my hideout in stone sentinel canyon i made a teleportation circle that only works with my permission


like this, i got traumatized with woman and cannot go out after that


the rumor starting to spread about me being the only one that fight the dragon king apparently spread by my wives


i want to complaint, but i’m too scared to meet them!



then


living secluded in the world i start to learn unique magic to teleport into my previous world


taking some game and anime from there, i start my secluded life


after playing alone for so long, i become influenced with the game protagonist too much and deciding it to be my persona


occasionally, i sense some strong people that reach lv cap. but unlike before, i didn't make them into my comrade but treats them as disciple


i don't want to have the feeling of losing comrade anymore, so i decide i will convince him with my own power next time


however, because i was afraid with a woman, i played too much games about

seducing woman and getting too used with that persona


i still didn't have a courage to pass the line though. let's keep the fact that i’m still a virgin despite married with lot of wifes to my graves


thanks to that another rumor about me has spread. sheesh, rumor spread by generation is troublesome



…….



then


i sense someone who reach lv cap


thinking it's been quite some time, i got a little excited to meet them


oh? it's a girl. and pretty young too, usually the one that reach cap is middle aged man lately


analyzing her, i found out who she was



..haha


so she was a hero, and summoned just like me


that’s interesting. i feel some familiarity with her too. i wonder if it's just because we come from another world, hmm..


she tried to run away, but bump her head instead. haha


thinking she was pretty adorable, i stole her lips


oops was that your first? it's mine too so that's fine right?


leaving her nonchalantly i wait for her in a week



….



she was planning some weird things again


huh, strange.


i was only planned to seriously teach her how to break lv cap but she was uneedlessly wary with me


feeling amused, i meet her directly below


she talked straight fact about me


ugh i feel like i gonna collapsed every time she insult me, but i try to bear with it



i was strange too. i didn't plan to personally sexual harass her this much but i just can't stop myself


she was fighting hard despite our difference of power. it's been a long time since i feel a excitement in fighting



however


i didn't expect her to use that strong of attack


moreover, by betting her own live


i panicked, and end up using my prized armor


but what makes me annoyed is not that


what makes me mad is the fact that she treats her live lightly



….



i cannot let her be this reckless anymore


i must teach her a correct path from now on


if she was a stranger and i let her died somewhere i don't care



but we already meet and leaving her to die like this would put a bad taste in my mouth


i don't want to experience the feeling of losing my acquaintance because of my helplessness anymore



but she was misunderstanding things and thought i got an extreme taste


hey i’m just a normal, healthy guy alright.


flicking her, i bring her to my house after sending her friend home



….



it was really full of surprise one by one


i was actually not angry when she barfed to me


however, her reaction is amusing so i decide to tease her anyway



but


her reaction after that unexpected to me


thinking she would be angry with me like usual, she was crying


oh crap, i didn't plan to make her cry. i thought she was gonna abuse me like usual


after trying to calming her down, i began to ponder a lot of things



yeah


i forgot


she was a girl


no matter how she abused and done crazy things she was a girl, and someone younger than me


since meeting her is a lot of fun, i start to forget that simple fact


what am i doing? as a man it's my responsibility to protect her right?



different than the goddess that can live forever, she was not an immortal and can die anytime


apologizing to her, i want to do everything i could for her


be it taking responsibility by marrying her, or killing myself i intend to do them all



but if you want for me to suicide wait until i can convince the dragon king and phoenix ok?


i can’t stop on that since i have gone this far anyway


deciding that, i planned to not letting her cry anymore

 

-i will surpass you just watch-



….


……



*fuaaah*



i slept well


i’m still sleepy, so i need a few minutes to collect my mind



one..



two..



three..



…..



mm



hmm



where am i?



around me i saw a room like a hospital


above is a ceiling which is familiar with japan, but this is another world so its unique here


while i wake up, i put aside the bed cover



“…”



i’m wearing a nurse outfit



…



….




i remember..



then



i start cursing



that incompetent motherfucker


i knew this was your taste!


an angel of white in nurse outfit huh?? i would become your fallen angel of death instead


you wanna get some injection? relax for i’ll give you the most lethal dose that any hospital would get banned if known!


you want some treatment?? then i’ll make sure you will never leave the hospital in full “equipment”


you want to get healed? relax for i will prolong your suffering as long as possible



hmm? it doesn't sound bad.


rather than just killing him instantly wouldn't making him live in pain forever is a good idea?


after i done making him scream and suffer i can just use that infamous neglect play



yes


let me hear your scream


let me hear your suffering


your lives and death is in my hand and hand only


amidst your begging and forgiveness to be released in pain, i would just smile and refuse it


even if you get angry or suffer, you can only cursing me from afar



if you made my mood bad you will die


if you made my mood good i will made your suffering prolonged



ufufu


what a wonderful job



…..



strange


i expect some interruption, or he would just coming out like before


…


...



AARGHHH!



remembering what just happened make me pissed off!


what the hell am i doing?


fuck you, previous me before!


fuck you, fate, route, and flag


must you always always get in my way, you damn route


feeling good for obstructing those that wants to leave you huh? yeah, i know, i know you damn route and flags.. you ignore another party intention and doing whatever to made the other party reach ending that they not even asked!


flag can just die! pre determined route can just go astray and just guide those unnecessary mobs!



while i was pondering about that



“..?”



i realize someone is sleeping beside me



….



i think i saw this scene before


though the gender is reversed


that famous scene from galge, waiting for your lover to recovered and falling asleep before you know it


iskandar sleeps here beside me



…



“...”



if it was another girl, it would be a badump and dokidoki scene


but for me..



this is a chance in lifetime


if i use that mini black hole and running away, would he get absorbed inside the mess?



no, not only that


using every item from goddess place i might be able to get rid of him!


goodbye protagonist! you were in the wrong story or book but blame your fate in meeting the villain instead of heroine


ah, i seem to be worried about the side effect before.. hmph, forget it hahaha!


all is equal before complete destruction


yosh, let’s do it! the die have been cast. all it need is just for it to happened!



“hmm..”



he start to wake up



damn youuuu !!!!!



must you avoid every death route, aah? why is the protagonist is so hard to kill!? isn't this make them fucking more dangerous than final boss? even secret boss and hidden boss can be killed eventually with strategizing and effort, but protagonist is just refuse-to-be-killed! even if the world is destroyed and the final boss died the protagonist still survived! what a horrible existence, were they a cockroach or something?


…


…



that’s it


i can only keep trying


just like what i usually do


forward


move


go


ignore everything else


stand over thousand of dead bodies


trample, tear them apart, kill


and win



in order to do that…



“oi, ero protagonist!!”



i’m waking him out violently and use the strongest repeated bare hand skill i have “vital spot”


it keep attacking the enemy weak point and stabbing it until i stop it or the enemy died


but he nonchalantly waking up like its nothing



“hmm? ha..! yeah? protagonist?”



he seems a bit dazed, but i ignore him


whatever



“come”



speaking while pulling him, i search for a suited place



“huh? huh? what happened?”



he seems dumbfounded. was he such a dumb character before?



“shut up and follow me. the only thing useful about you is your strong body, so..”


i will make use of it and dried you out empty till nothing left



hearing that, he seems to start panicked



“perveert, let me go! help, i’m gonna get raped! mommy”



i feel gross from this huge change of his character, so i unconsciously throw him away


…..



finding a place like dojo, i bring him along


i didn't want to even touch him, so i bring him here .while kicking him like a soccer ball



hey, stop pretending to be scared! i know you’re actually unhurt!



after that


i take a wooden sword, then i provoked him


he looked at me confusingly



“we’re gonna start training. come”



hearing that, he seems doubtful but taking a wooden sword too



….



“BE SERIOUS! WHAT’S WITH THAT WEAK ATTACK! SO WEAK! ARE YOU EVEN TRYING!? ATTACK ME WITH THE INTENT TO KILL! FIGHT ME LIKE I AM THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR MURDERING YOUR FAMILY! THINK LIKE I AM THE ONE WHO STOLE YOUR BELOVED LITTLE SISTER! THE ONE THAT IS TAKING HER, DEFILING HER IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES! BE MORE ANGRY!”


“no, even if you said that..”


“HUUH? WHAT’S WITH THAT EXCUSE!? DO YOU THINK THE ENEMY WILL WAIT FOR YOU TO FINISH TALKING!? IF YOU CAN TALK THEN STEAL SOME FREE ATTACK WHILE THEY TALKED! KILL THEM BEFORE THEY CAN EVEN REACT! MAKE THEM INTO A MINCEMEAT BEFORE THEY KNOW YOU’RE COMING!”


“i get it, i get it, but look..”


“FEELING SYMPATHY? THEN SAID THAT AFTER YOUR MOTHER AND SISTER GETTING RAPED AND KILLED IN FRONT OF YOU, YOUR DAD IS SOLD AND BUTCHERED AS LIVESTOCK! THEN YOURSELF IS SOLD AS A PROSTITUTE TO PAY YOUR DEBT! WITH EVERY PERVERT MIDDLE AGE OLD MAN ORDERING YOU EVERYDAY! THEN YOU SUICIDE IN DESPAIR! WITH EVERY HATRED WITH THE WORLD! AND EVERYTHING, INCLUDING YOURSELF AND EVERY HUMANS AND LIVING BEINGS!”


“nah, i am a single child. and my parent already died long ago. i never had that kind of life either. but, more importantly”



he looks down for me



“you're, already cannot move anymore see..?”


“...”


looking worried, he replied that to me


a strange scene when a man with dojo outfit looking at a collapsed nurse is happening



….



that’s right


i forced him for sparring, and he beat me in no time at all.. shit


looking at the ceiling, i tried to remember his move..


when i thought i reach his blind spot he react with inhuman speed and stopped it easily


although we used wooden sword, but strangely the sword here is not losing in terms of durability with my sword



i gotta ask which wood he made that from, but later i’m busy!


even though i used the full strength and attack unhesitantly its like he can react to every move i used



i even try to distract him by saying “aah! donald trump! he’s here?” or “your penis is showing, you bastard! are you trying to show it to everyone else!? i know you're proud of it but stop showing me that ugly sight!”

and pretending to be shy “re..reks kun! no, don’t strip! this is in public you know!”



he only show such a sad face with sympathetic look. but feeling bad about it he looked away and pretend to be distracted


chance! pretending or not, now that you looked away, i can score at least one hit!



yeah.. i got that delusion once at least


now he didn't even block. avoiding my attack like a after image with minimum movement he avoids them all



i even try to use my pinpoint stab with highest accuracy and hawk eye and all seeing eye to read his movement but he merely surpass the probability and reading ability of the skill


in fact, he didn't even counter and only avoids or block my attack



….



“...”



i got tired and lie down in the floor


annoying


i feel like i want to puke


…



when i keep attacking him and got tired, i keep provoking him to fight back


he seems troubled, then after pondering awhile



he merely clapping both of his hand in the air and the shockwave is pushed me back


because i’m already very tired, the shock make me fall


and that’s how i’m in this situation



“...”



ahh


i’m a bit relieved


after working my body, my mind is clearer than now


having nothing to do until i recovered, i asked him some question



it seems like, he was afraid to made me cry again and didn't know how to treat me well and being afraid of hurting me accidently so he become this gutless guy


rubbing salt in my wound.. just removing your memory by pulling out your brain is not enough! i won’t forget this humiliation,this pain.. aargh! just thinking about it makes me feel being thrown into a live volcano is better



moving on, i probably know the reason. why did he put me in nurse outfit. he said that's the only clothes he have for woman that not showing much exposure


i bet i would find the 1:1 scale doll of the owner of this outfit if i find it… just watch, i’ll photo and upload it in 2chan and twitter, along with your beaten face and hostile comment!


...he won’t have a figure of aimi won’t he?



…. … ..



ahh aimi, i miss you BADLY. ugh, i remembering her sweet face and line at this moment “hang in there,oniichan”


..is this withdrawal symptom? come to think of it.. how long since i played the game with aimi?


uu just remembering it makes me teary. ahh aimi, i miss you! i want to see you!



“ah, are you alright!? did i hurt you again? i’m sorry, i’m really sorry please don’t cry anymore!”



hey you, stop interrupting me. this and that is a different tears.


come to think of it, he definitely had “that” right? considering he can remodel this room with style from japan



“oi”


“yes? ah, are you okay?”


“where's your room?”


“huh?”


“YOUR ROOM! THE PLACE WHERE YOU MASTRUBATES, EVERYTHING! THE SANCTUARY FOR THOSE CLOSING DOWN FROM SOCIETY! THE HOLY LAND THAT DESPERATELY PROTECTED FROM OUTSIDE INVADERS! THAT-ROOM!”



hearing that he seems to be dumbfounded but start to mutters in small voice



“i see.. i have to take responsibility right? but having our first night done in here.. ah, should i prepare the wedding ring first? back then, my wife is the one proposing so i don't know what to do in my case..”



it seems like he’s misunderstanding, but i ignore him and pushed him further to showing me his room


after it seems like he made up his mind, he bring me to his room


too bad ero protagonist. what you think won’t happen!


….



“dammit, where? where is it!? there's only fps and soccer game here!”



starting to plunder and ransack his room, i search for “that” game among his collection


i found some galge too but it's some old title that i don't even know so i ignore them



he only stare dumbfoundedly


i try to rummage his locker and only found some books



“ahh? what is this? “a method to talk to a woman that even monkey understand?” “even you can be a player” “once in lifetime chance! a study of genghis khan night time history” who the fuck still believe this crap?”



i throw away those trash book into the trash bin


he desperately taking it back though


ignoring him, i continue looking



hmph, dont underestimate a neet instinct


after living for so long in neet-lifestyle i could know where you put your secret stash!



there, i found it



its hidden deep under bed and even a secret locker but i manage to open it


looking pale he tried to stop me but too late, i already found it



even your cheat like skill cannot stop me


now, what is the treasure down here? let me see.. hmm


….



what is this?


i expect some porn book but instead


i only found some photo album.


it looks pretty old though



“ah, that is!”



he try to stopped me, but i ignore it


ufufu what is inside? what is inside!? finally, a chance to grab his weakness! after being exploited for so long, i finally found a chance to revenge! a blackmail! a weakness! i’ll spread it! i’ll spread it! i’m gonna spread it in society! i won't be stopped until i reproduce this book and write it in history book as “the sword saint secret hobby” and selling it as bestseller! i can kill him socially at least! aahh.. thank god, i can finally get a taste of revenge..


now let us see.. treasure chest, opened!



….



“...”



a girl with a pink hair is shown


with a boy with black hair playing around with her


sometimes they play in place like beach, sometimes in park like place, sometimes they happily eat together like a couple in instagram and twitter


they looked so happy together




the boy looked kinda unfamiliar, but the girl.. hmm? where did i see her before?


ah



“so you’re seen it.. “



he was blushed in face and embarrassed


then he start explaining


while looked like he was reminiscence about things in the past



“i know, i should have thrown it away. nothing good come from remembering things from the past. even i realized already that she had already forgotten about me. and my appearance has changed too so she probably won't remember me. and i should just forget about her too. that way, we can live as a strangers and never meets again”



then he continued



“but, i cannot do that..”



making a pained face, he speak



“i’ve tried to thrown it away many times. i thought this would be better. she would probably still happy even without me anyway. i have already thrown away all of my memories of her except that album.”



he start to close his eyes and open it again



“but i cannot throw that away no matter how much i tried.”


“my breathing is becoming heavy, and my mind is blank once i think of throwing it away. my hand keeps trembling when thinking of losing this only proof of our connection left is gone”



then, he continues



“ i end up using an rare preservation scroll to stop the book degeneration. i put it inside the deepest part of my room and planned to never touch it again forever and burying it inside”



but now you come and saw it. perhaps it's a karma that i cannot avoid, no, perhaps it's my sin. a sin because i’m leaving her alone and never said anything



he speak



…



“..”


“...”


“...”



but


i ignore him


i didn't heard half of what he was saying


my mind is full of boiling moment right now



that’s


because…



“WHAT IS THIS!? AAARGH!”



i ripped it apart with my bare hand



and it broke into pieces



“AAAAHH!?”



after that


he screamed too

 

-console him? haha, yeah right. more like breaking him further-



“...”



crap


i’ve done it now


looking at the teared album in front of me, i just realized what have i done


i thought i could finally grab hold of his weakness but it was a happy life of couple instead!


like this, if i spread it and posting it like this i would be seen as a jealous and flamer instead



the internet will mercilessly tear me apart! as the one who spits on happy couple! as the bitch that anonymously stole a happy couple album


internet is scary.. getting ostracized socially is scary


being hated is fun but being socially abused hurts even for me..


they can hurt people by talking far more than me, i guess it's not exaggerating their amount of bully is making a lot of people suicide in japan every days


realizing i can’t even use this, the blood is getting into my head



yeah, even i feel it’s going too far.


anybody would realize how precious is that album is to him, but i mercilessly tear it apart



“.....”



i cannot said anything


he looks down on the teared album with disbelief


thinking he finally wont forgive me this time, i prepared to running away from this place with all of my might


but



“it’s fine”



he


only made such a simple reply



“!?”



“i guess, this would happen sooner of later”



he seems to brace himself


like bearing the weight of the world



“i already know..”



he continues



“i already know.. this is impossible from the start”


“about convincing them, about making her happy... it's all a distant dream for me. a false hope since the start”


“thinking about it, it was already strange that a normal person like me can go this far”



“....”



i only hearing him silently



“i know it's better to forget about it. such a dream doesn't suit me. such a wish is impossible since the start”


“i.. even me saving another people and eventually being called a hero is just an act of selfishness. the truth is..”



he changed his expression and trying to brush it away



“no, forget it. at this point it doesn't matter anymore”



he start to speak with a tone of a young boy instead of a adult



“i am just a coward. perhaps i was afraid to heard her reply, perhaps i was just running away all this time”


“thanks, and sorry”



he looked straight at me



“you…!”



i only look at him in amazement



“you made me open my eyes. thank you for tearing that album apart”



he continues



“from now on, it's better if i don't get involved from her, from this world, and living somewhere else where i can’t meet her or remembering her”


“ah, but i can't even die. i would live forever unaging ahaha. maybe i would just become a hermit somewhere? yeah, i should just start doing it. it's not much different from my live recently after all”



speaking nonchalantly like it doesn't matter at all anymore



“...”



“no, i just remember. now that i think about it, there's a better way for me to step out from the stage”



he start to speak to himself


it was in voice that usually can't be heard but i can read some of his lips movement


i should just challenge argevalt for last time. and this time..



i can dissapear peacefully



…..



“....!”



i snapped


with that word as trigger, i snapped


i know i shouldn’t be the one doing this when i’m at fault, but i can no longer holding back



“YOU MOTHERFUCKER!”


“!”



i punched him


he didn't even try to avoid


someone with his body spec should be able to avoid it, but he dont


perhaps he didn't even feels the need to dodge



but


i don't care


staring at him as hard as i can, i made the most angriest expression i have till now


he seems to draw back a little from my stare, but i don't care


right now my face probably looks like a devil fully intent with murdering him



screwthishit



i begin to punch him again


i keep doing it again and again


my hand is the one that hurts instead but i don't care


truthfully i don't care about his situation


wherever he’s running away, wherever he got unrecruited love, whenever he got unfulfilled wish. all of it can go to hell like i care



but


his words when he said give up


his words when he said its impossible


his self pity, his words of better to be die



i, cannot accept that



shit



“ARE YOU KIDDING!? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ARE YOU JOKING!?“


“SCREW THIS SHIT!



i screamed



“DID YOU THINK I AM BLIND!?”



he seems surprised



“ANYONE WITH A EYE WOULD DEFINITELY REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU CARE ABOUT HER! HOW MUCH YOUR FEELINGS TOWARD HER!”


“BUT YOU’RE GONNA DISAPPEAR LIKE THAT? WITH UNRESOLVED ANSWER? WITH UNRESOLVED PROBLEM!?”


“YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO DIE? AS THE CRIMINAL THAT START IT ALL? TO END YOUR STORY? HER STORY?”



he looked at me confused



“IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, THEN JUST LIVE!”



he was surprised



“YOU WANNA DIE ALONE LIKE A LITTLE SHIT DROWN INTO SORROW? WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, AARGH!?”


“SUCH A END IS DESERVED TO THE PROTAGONIST THAT ALREADY DONE IT ALL! EVERYTHING HE COULD! BUT YOU HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED YET!”


“YOU MIGHT BE FINE WITH IT, BUT WHAT ABOUT HER!?”



he looked surprised again



“YOU SAID SHE DOESN'T REMEMBER, BUT SO WHAT!?”



he seems pondering



“IF YOU’RE DEDICATED TO HER THEN SEE THROUGH IT UNTIL THE END! IF YOU WANT TO SAVE HER THEN FOLLOW THROUGH TILL THE END! END THIS STORY PROPERLY!”


“IT'S JUST A FAKE ACTION? SOMETHING THAT YOU SELFISHLY DECIDE? HAVE YOU NOT REALIZED IT YET!? OR YOU JUST PRETEND NOT TO!?”


“IF YOU THINK IT’S FINE TO END YOUR STORY HALFWAY, IF YOU THOUGHT IT WAS THAT EASY TO FINISHED IT BY ENDING IT WITH YOUR DEATH, THEN..”



i forcefully concentrate


it might be hard to use magic but it's not impossible


as long the item is in small size like hand


it's still possible to took that from my storage



“GO TO HELL AND DROWN INTO REGRETS”


“SUFFER IN ETERNITY FOR NEVER REACHING THAT “IMPOSSIBLE” DREAM”




staring at him like i wanna kill him


in no time at all, i took out the mini black hole and start to break it apart with my hand



“..! OI!”



he tried to stopped me, but it's too late


the black hole is made and my right hand is disappear inside nothingness


when the hole is starting to get bigger


he forcefully pushed it back



“HAAAAAA!”



amazing, he can stopped it


this feels more dangerous than my skill. if that was a skill of pure destruction, this was a effect of disappearing and absorbing everything in sight


he used his golden armor from the start, proof that it was more dangerous than photon cannon



“CRAP!?”



cannot stop the disappearance, he start to get panicked



i cannot feel my right arms anymore


it probably gonna reach my heart if this keeps up and i die



but i won't stop.


it's impossible to stop it anyway


i don't even know what is this thing to begin with, so stopping it is impossible


within his panic, he start to speak



“I WON’T LET YOU!”



and start to use more strength



“I WON’T LET YOU DIE! “



speaking a cheesy line like from the hero in story he speak



“I SUMMON THE STRONGEST PAIR OF DESTRUCTION, OBEY ME THEN BECOME A BLADE AND DESTROY ALL OF MY ENEMIES!”



he start to speak a chant



“SIGMA! CAULES!”



a pair of sword coming out from his hand


a beautiful sword with red and silver color is coming out



only by seeing it, i can sense its power


its mana is beyond anything so far. i never seen anything like it even in goddess place


a sword that seems to be able to obliterate the world and render sky apart by a swing



“NOW!”



attacking the black hole before if reach my heart, he poured his strength to the black hole



“INFINITY DRIVE!”



an intense flowing of mana occured


different than my pure cannon of destruction, it was a light that feels like all hope in the world is condensated into an attack



his attack is getting absorbed, but doing that slow the progress of the black hole


he keep doing it by pouring every mana he got.


but i can sense his magic power is starting to running out


he ignore it and keep pouring his magical power like his life depends on it.



well of course


even he would probably be died if swallowed


this attack could probably obliterate a planet if used outside but it's nothing to the black hole



just when i thought his mana is getting lower than half..



the black hole is getting smaller


eventually it was getting smaller into pintsize hole


and disappear



“haaah.. haa..”



he look totally exhausted


his magical power is decrease far lower than before, even lower than me


if i attack him in this state, probably even i can win



that's it


if i’m in my peak condition though



“!? OI!?”



i can’t hold on anymore and collapsed


different than last time, he didn't have enough time and strength to use protection magic to me


it would be useless anyway



so i received the effect fully


the pain is almost non existent


but losing my entire right arm make me dizzy from shock



“!! SHIT”



he started to panicked and using a bottle of elixir and pour it to me


but..



“!? IT’S NOT WORKING?”



around the disappeared part from where my arm formerly there, a black parts start to coming out around them and start to eating me


seemingly thinking what to do, he said to me



“sorry, please bear it for awhile”



he let out a sword


its a normal size katana and didn't have the mana like the sword before


with one swing, he



cut apart the blackened part in my shoulder


….!!



“AAAAAAAAAAAARGHH!”



it hurts


the blackened part is eating me but stopped my bleeding


not that they’re no more, blood gush out from my right shoulder



“...!!”



i can't think like normally because of the pain and blood lost



feeling weak, i collapsed


while muttering last word



“damn you.. treat me more gently”

 

-i never learn huh? ahahaha you just realized?-



……


….



it hurts


i feel like i was inside a bottomless hole


my whole body feel screamed all over, and i feel like i cannot differentiate between dream and reality


feels like i was seeing a room like a laboratory for instant



but i lost consciousness soon after that


then, i wake up again and feels the same pain


the cycle is continue for god know how long



i can’t even stay conscious long enough to turn off the pain sense


awake,pain,dream. endlessly vicious cycle of something that can be called hell



ahh..


i guess i’m in hell



well


it figures


a criminal will never have a good end


the end of a villain is crueler than death



i guess


this is my punishment



…..



….



...



screw that


like i’m gonna lose in those pain


it hurts? so what?


pain is proof that i’m still alive


so that means i am still alive


knowing that, i brace myself from the endless pain


i seriously thought i was gonna die over and over and over and over again..!




but



but



but




i refuse


i keep holding on


clinging into live, i keep getting pushed like a straw among the waterfall


i keep holding on, forcefully, and struggling for the remaining life of my life


seeing myself as a small ember almost drown, i refuse to be extinguished



after a long time of struggling that seems like a eternity



a light is coming into my sight



then



i started to opened my eyes



……



“...”



it's the same white ceiling like before


it feels like a lot time has passed



whatever


i tried to get up


only to get assaulted by a sudden pain all over my body



“OWW!”



shit


i forgot


i turned off the pain sense immediately



*phew*



i start to feels at ease


but my body still feels weak



“..?”



i feel something different in my arms


realizing what is it, i watch at my arms


….



“...”



it’s clearly not mine


the skin is more white and slender, and from shoulder above there's a trace of scar like surgery


what happened? while i was pondering that


he coming out unannounced like usual



“oh! thank god, you return conscious”



while wearing a lab coat over his dojo outfit


yeah, it doesn't fit at all



“i was worried. you stay unconscious for 4 months and keep having nightmare. the elixir didn’t return the body part that you lose, so i have no choice to operate you to attach your arm. unfortunately it completely disappear, so i have no choice but to attach a new arm. thankfully i find a fresh body part from searching in another dimension and it fits. well, it's the first time i have done a operation and i don't have any tranquilizer. there's a limit of using magic after all and my magic potential is suck since the beginning”



hearing that i was surprised


i’m still feeling weak from just waking up, but i ignore it



“whoa, wait. don't force yourself to stand. just staying alive from the antimatter bomb it's already a miracle. and even elixir cannot restore it completely”



that's not it!


i was gonna yell



but once he was nearing me, i grab his collar


that's not the problem, the problem is..



“HOW LONG DID YOU SAY I WAS SLEEPING AGAIN?!”


“ah.. like i said, about 4 months?”


“WHAT, DAY IS NOW?!”


“ah, you can looked it there..”



saying that, he shows me this world calendar



….



only two weeks left for that day!


considering the preparation and so on, i must start to moving them around ten days before


theres.. only less than a week left to start my “plan”



crap!


this isn't the time to sleep!



“ah, hey?”



forcing myself to get up, i run into the door



but, i slipped halfway


sheesh, iskandar seems commenting



“don't push yourself okay? you really almost died back then. i’m the one that should have a complaint, but i’ll let it go. more importantly..”



he speak while pointed at me



“are you.. gonna go outside with that appearance?”



….



“...”



after he said that


i looked closely at myself


i was


nude


without wearing anything



“...”



realizing that


i glare at him like looking at the worst bug ever exist



no


perhaps i’ve already not consider him as living creature



“ah! don't look at me like that! i don't have any other choice! you suddenly awake when i just finished operating you! i don't even have a time to put some clothes”



i feel like i’m hearing fucking lot of a excuse from typical eroge harem protagonist


damn youu… how much far did you seen me this four months!?



you clearly already have a heroine and still trying to look at another woman? are you planning for a harem ending!? bastard


erase it! erase that figure from your memory and die while we’re at it



haah.. hahh..



no good


i’m too tired to standing up


for me to feel this much pain even with turning off pain sense, just how badly injured am i?


feels like he doesn't want to argue with me anymore, he put his lab coat to me and carry me with princess carry to bed



…


…



AARGHH!


YOU DONE IT NOW YOU BASTARD! THE MOST INFAMOUS SCENE FROM SHOUJO MANGA!


YOU THINK YOU'RE COOL OR SOMETHING? YOU WANNA GET SOME CARRY? THEN I’LL JUST USE SOCCER BALL CARRY TO BRING YOU!



BRING IT ON ASSHOLE!


EVEN IF I AM THE LAST REMAINING WOMAN IN THE UNIVERSE I WOULD DENY IT WITH ALL MY MIGHT


EVEN IF THE WHOLE LIFE EXCEPT ME EXTINGUISHED, I WOULD JUST ENJOY IT FULLY ALONE


NEVER LOOKS DOWN ON MY DETERMINATION TO SURVIVE! AHAHAHA



...crap, trying to struggling and thinking unrelated things only making me feels really tired



i’m really feels exhausted like i was a baby just learning to walk. is that bomb even drain my spirit?


if i turn on my pain sense, i’m sure i even won't be able to walk.


realizing this



i guess.. i really almost died huh?



close..


i’m not planning to die a second time


if i die once again, i doubt i can be revived.




the goddess said herself that my soul is badly damaged


what happened if even my soul is broken without being able to be repaired? i guess that's one thing i shouldn't find out



i will not stop being reckless though ahaha



don't get me wrong, i still consider my live dear to me


but if by protecting my life i have to thrown away the way of life i have done until now there's no point in living anymore right?


just by living.. just by stay only living but you're dead inside.. what's the difference of that with death?



hmm


why did i get so fixated with the point of living?



whatever


i’m sure i’ll find out the answer someday



then


once he put down me on the bed, iskandar bows



“sorry, and thanks”



saying that, he bows



“..?”



i don't get it


why must he be thankful with someone that almost killed him?



then


pulling out something from the table beside, he shown me something



it was..


the photo album of him and goddess..


the one that i teared apart.


at least, the remains



then


he begin to talk



“back then”


“i..might made a wrong choice”



then


he start explaining his circumstance


about him leaving the goddess, stole her memories, fighting the dragon king


until this time



“honestly, at some point somewhere i thought i made a wrong choice over and over again”


“however, hearing you yelling at me i realized..”



he gripped the album



“that, i was just running away”



he continues



“i.. i am afraid to heard her reply. i was afraid that it would break our current relationship”


“however, if i don't start then i wont finish either. i delayed it for too long, but no more. just like you said, only i can finish my story that i started”


“thanks to you i realized my feeling after this long time just now. i never realize that my annoyed feeling with her children all this time is probably a jealously”


“once again, th..”



knowing what he gonna say, i stopped him further with my hand



“stop”



i continues



“ i didn't do anything and not doing anything to deserve your thanks. i am not deserving any gratitude too.”



“don't forget that i was trying to murder you. whatever happened cannot change that fact. and i won't promise i won't try to murder you any other time too”


“as long as our path is crossed, i would be keep trying to kill you. you and i are a polar opposites. neither of us can remain in the same world as each other without crossing blades. you're a wall that i should surpass eventually, and i cannot let this trivial matter made you run away from our fight to death”



after all



“i, will definitely kill you”



i speak with all of my heart


i cannot tolerate the rightful path of this man any longer


however, letting him die and running away easily is not my intention too



i, only by my hand and me alone that i will kill him personally


that's how i do things, and i have no intention to change that


die by my hand and die in your beloved arms, no matter what you would eventually die



“you will regret someday for not letting me die. i am your enemy and i will not let you go until one of us die. we are the villain and protagonist, no such scenario or ending where we both live happened”


“so remember, and ingrained fear of me deep inside you”



hearing what i said he was starting to get surprised face



well that's good


i keep hearing his “voice” till now. honestly it's annoying that he was speaking in my heads and ears, so i stopped him



it was supposed to become the destined moment of the “hero meets villain”


if only this didn't happened



*KRUUUUK*



“….”



“...”



my stomach is rumbling


ah crap, i’m not eating anything in four months



then


he laughs



“pfft..”



and loud too



“BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA”



….



“....”



shit!


why did you choose that timing, my stomach!?



thanks to you, it become a joke scene instead!


is it my fate? lately i feel like i’ve starting to become a joke material.. huh? huh? what is this? did someone messed up the fate line or something? hey god, buddha or anything. do something about the messed up line don’t you?



while desperate for my condition, he laughs for awhile after that


after he stopped



“khukhu.. i see.. i get it”



he seems to decided



“then”



offering his hand to help me stand, he said



“shall we eat something then? my villainess?”



….



“...”



i didn't reply


and i only feels like my hatred to him increased instead


yeep i can’t stand him after all..

 

-how dare you playing around with a maiden heart..!-



after i put on some simple clothes he brings me to the dining hall


it's a simple cardigan with shorts


the fuck! so you had some normal clothes after all !


he start to make a excuse that he just getting them for me recently, but i don’t believe it!


why is the size is so fit for me? guilty! there's a guilty offender here! police!



then


because i’m still weak, he offers to bring my hand until we reach dining hall


i want to refuse that, but its the truth that my body feels so weak so i can’t help it.



actually he even offers to carry me, but i refuse!


that’s something that i cannot allow into



as if being treated like a kid is not enough. if he dares to carry me around this time, i will research some dangerous virus that is only targeting to kill a human man


how? hmm.. i can just ask friend to teach me. he was not a human so i’m sure it's fine



ah but can this guy even considered a human anymore? he was almost immortal right.. shit, thats cheating


thinking like that, i bring my weakened body into some place like a dining hall



…..



i reach the room


its a normal like dining room similar with japan, with dining table, rice cooker, and dining set



seriously, just how much effort and time did he made for this whole strange place?


after that, i sit in the chair beside the dining table



“i’ll cook something for you, please wait for awhile”



hmm? he cook by himself? i’m fine even with cup noodles you know. i start to miss some japan food


the food in another world is.. yeah, as expected. horrible compare to the previous world.


especially the hygiene.. i would be lucky to not find a worm inside their vegetables.



“...”



i inhale my breath


honestly, considering my condition just sitting here feels painful


it doesn't seems like it's just normal damage to my body, it's like its even corride my whole being



i would definitely be erased without a trace if i receive that explosion fully


but i’m still irritated..


the reason because



“i seriously hope they won’t start the festival without me!”



being leaved alone while they’re doing the party is the thing i couldn't stand!


ah, but its bad if they stopped working in case they worried i’m gone..


well i think my friend and oo-kun can handle that, but still



i need to recover faster and regain my strength! otherwise i would be too late..!


then i should think of the continuity of the plan for now.. hmm. the part where it was the most effective, how to seriously hurt the enemies by attacking the place they don't want the most.. wiped them out in one breath, while they're being paralyzed.. no, would it be fine to just wait for them to kill each other? i can maximize the profit while minimize my side casualities.. i can just provoke each other to eat greedily then taking it like hyena..



“i’d appreciate if you didnt made such a scary face while we eating..”



hearing that, iskandar returns bringing some food


ah, how long did i got distracted.. bad, i didn't even realize him



saying that, he put the food in the table


it’s a simple salmon bento set meal with miso soup. a exemplary of japanese food



“…”



*GRUUUK KRUUUK*



crap..


my stomach is rumbling non stop, and i can't stop drooling from the aroma



then, without hesitation


i said itadakimasu quickly and quickly gobble it ..!



*munch munch nom nom*



“so fast!? wait, are you eating or drinking? don't try to gobble the plate too!”



i ignore him and keep attacking.. i mean, eating



so good..! so delicious..!


eating white rice feels like i’m inside the clouds, the salmon feels like a luxury grade steak


the sauce fits well deserved to be called a premium goods wrapping the salmon


even the vegetables feels so fresh that it feels like i’m eating handkerchief until now..!


the miso soup feels like a fresh water among the great desert in the middle of sahara…!



aah..


i’m reborn


like a baby born from their mother womb


i’m really, really feels glad to be alive



ahh..


it’s a bliss


its happiness…



..thank you, salmon. thank you white rice, thank you miso soup


you are, truly, an exemplary product of the country of rising sun



-one hour later-



when i come to, all of the food in the table is gone



“you.. can really eat huh? i originally made it for two, but before i realize it i cook for more than for ten person instead..”



seeing i eat so fast, he start to cooked another various things


ramen, hamburger, fried rice.. i lost count on how much he made


every thing that he made is delicious, it's all good!



i never realize how precious the joy of eating can reach


seriously, whoever think arts is better than food must be the stupidest person in the universe


its true, finding a new food is more enjoyable than finding a new star!


ahh.. i want to eat it forev…...



…


…..


……


………


…………


…………...



“AARGHHHHH!”


“eh? what's wrong?”



i realize something terrible



this bastard..


that was dangerous. i almost made a death flag



he know


he knows it!


he knows that this food is impossible to eat anywhere expect in this place!



i can try to made something similar, but,with my useless cooking skills and not knowing how to made the soy sauce and dashi in this world it would end up in failure!


he planned to changed my body little by little, and trying to made me not being able to live without him



if that succeed, i would become his toy without any will to resist! to be played until the end of my wretched lives!


a dependency lives! a ensnared trap made with food! a gluttonous pig trapped with greed, that-is-me!


feeling despair looking at my future, i start to look at him with a sharp eye



dangerous



what are you trying to do to me this fucking assholeeeee..!



“you bastard…”


“!?”


“playing with my pure feelings (food) as much as you like.. treating me as you like, toying and baiting me while i am weak..! using my body as much as you like...! dancing inside your thumbs all along! with such a devious and terrible inhumane trap..! (food)”


“unforgivable, unacceptable..”


“??????”



iskandar looked confused instead


then


i put out all of my remaining antimatter bomb each between my finger



“DIEE..!”


“WHOA!? NOT THIS AGAIN!?”



seemingly panicked, iskandar surprised



…..



*haa haa.. haah haah..*


*huff huff.. fuu fuuh..*



inside this chaotic dining room, we looked haggard and tired while staring at each others


because i’m still in bad condition, he manage to snatch it this time and stopped it in time before it exploded



hmm? this time i can letting it out rather easily than before. could it be, i got stronger?


checking my status..



yeah


i have reach the transcended


i just started with lv 100 though


my health is still not full and my status decreased alot like i’m in a status effect condition


perhaps, i would feel the difference once i recovered enough



“..haah, seriously. gimme a break wouldn't you?”



saying that, he let out a small pouch


and all of the antimatter bomb is stored there instantly like a vacuum



hmm? is it like a item box? but modeled after pouch?


just like i thought


he can't use space magic huh? or maybe even..



“you know, i have no talent in magic. so please stop using your storage everywhere like that. especially if it was filled with dangerous item”



hmm? but didnt you said you change your bodies using the same magic like goddess?



“that was using something called your spirit instead of magic power. anyone can use it as long they comprehend the complex pattern and enough willpower”



ahh i see. learning it seems difficult. yep, i probably wouldn't even remember the formula even if it took my whole life



“that's why even my previous body can do it. but it took me 100 years to learn”



okay, impressive dedication.. i won’t be able to do that. forget it, bye



“anyway..”



he stare at me



“how.. did you get those bomb? i thought they’re inside the forbidden chamber”



forbidden?


ahh i see..


that ominous looking room deep inside goddess basement huh? the one with a lot of locked door and stuff? with some biohazard symbol inside?



well if i looked into such a obvious “i don't want anyone to come here” place it actually tingle my sadistic side and i wanna poke them further you know?


i can only manage to push through the first door, but there's countless door inside that i can't manage to open further



hearing that, he frowned



“didnt you even think how abnormal that room located or how dangerous it would be? well.. i guess it's too late”



“so”



he stare at me again



“you have another thing that you had taken from there, don't you?”



hearing that, i only reply “nope. not at all” quickly so he didn't realize my lie


but he didn’t believe me at all and starting to get persistent


i got carried away and provoke him “yeah, i got it. so what? you think you can force me? hah, i know you cannot kill me because of your protagonist disease. so? what are you gonna do about it? what if i don't want to give it? gonna suicide in front of me? beg with a harakiri instead? ahaha”



hearing that


he start to bring me like a luggage to somewhere


whoa! careful! i didn't expect him to be so forceful. but don't think i will open my mouth! if you force me, i will retaliate with using all of the item i stored from there!



while thinking like that


he bring me into a familiar room


it was a laundry room with a giant washing machine



“....”



oii bastard, not, this, again!



knowing i panicked inside, he start to tease me



“if you’re being obedient and not getting naughty, i might not give you a punishment and reward you instead, you naughty kitten?”



YOU!


WHAT HAPPENED WITH ALL OF YOUR REGRET!? YOUR APOLOGIZE!?


YOU THINK YOU CAN FORCE ME WITH A BRUTE FORCE? MAKING ME BEND INTO YOUR WILL?



HAH



TRY IT


TRY IT IF YOU CAN


NO FORCE IN THIS WORLD, OR ANOTHER WORLD CAN FORCE ME TO DO WHAT I DON’T WANT TO!


TRY TO STRUGGLE, TRY TO HOPING



IT’S ALL GONNA BE IN VAIN


NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY, YOUR VOICE WON'T BE HEARD!


YOU WILL DESPAIR ALONE WITHOUT ANYBODY TO PAID ATTENTION TO YOU



HAHAHA


YOUR STRUGGLE IS A MUSIC TO MY EARS



“i will give you a food like that everyday”



hearing that


i got frozen



seemingly not missing it, iskandar makes a smile



“if you don't want to come here, how about sending someone to take it?”


“i still have teleportation device, its old but probably worked. you can just made a checkpoint to this place and yours and sending someone to fetch it everyday. how about it?”


“…”



pfft


nice try


you thought i would be tempted, but i won't!


even if you promise everyday, there's no guarantee for how long!


furthermore something like that is only a temporary


once you got lazy to cook, you can just made any excuse you want! and the weak me cannot even complain!



my determination is as hard as mountain, and taller than a tokyo tower


something like this, will not faze me!!



“ah, i remembered”



iskandar replied



“i can give you a lifetime guarantee. truthfully i can use my clone technique to made that without effort at all. if you’re still suspicious i don't mind to use a contract scroll imbued with contract magic. how about it?”



…..



“....”



fuh



fuck it


screw you


you thought i have a such a weak resolve !?


you think i’m such a easy woman easily baited by a food!?


something like that


is trivial before my pride



but, too bad


what i want go do, is already decided since the beginning!



what i want, is already determined


no matter what obstacle, no matter what waits beyond


i won't stop it once i start!



yes..


this determination


i will let him realize that!


making a smile, i replied with all of my might!




“let us made the contract!!”




i said that



without any hesitation

 

-i got scammed!?-



“okay, the contract is done”



finalising the contract, iskandar said that


the content is as following : iskandar promised to give me daily meals a day, in exchange i have to hand over all of the dangerous item that is able to influence more than a scale of a town i received inside my storage


after signed it, i just realize my mistake



this bastard!


he make me give everything, meaning every weapon of mass destruction that i received from another place won't be able to used too


i can make do with a weapon of small destruction, but something fatal as hydrogen bomb or atomic bomb is impossible too


the exception is if i store it somewhere outside, but even i wasn't dare enough to letting an item that powerful outside!


he stripped everything of me, making me weak and unable to retaliate to making me his plaything!!



“please dont look at me like i am some kind of depraved pervert.. i won’t do anything, see..”



aah? like you were not already one of it!


i’m still looked at him suspiciously, but iskandar only saying haa and ignore me while moving into next topic



“how is your body now? feels any better?”



now that you think about it..


i didn't feel groggy anymore, but my condition is still weaker than usual


at the moment, there's no problem moving normally but fighting is still hard i think..



“this place had a special atmosphere that makes training and recovery easier. i think your body already undergone some changes and you’re already surpass lv cap right?”



huh? wait, so it was that easy to reach the transcended? i only need to stay in here and just like that?



“normally humans have a hard time gathering mana so they need a long time to level beyond the cap. monster or demons is having easier time because their body is basically mostly made by mana itself. so they can reach hundred level easier and there's no need to categorized them as transcended or like that”



seriously? humans are weak..



“however, once a human surpass a hundred they gain strength more better than a monster equal with level. so it won't be strange for a lv 100 human to defeat lv 150 normal monster. even lv 200 sometimes depends on the human ability”



hmm.. so they’re basically a late bloomer



“of course, there's always exception where the status and skills is far surpass their level like the mythical being or some certain s rank monster.. but most life form are basically similar”



huh, i see..


well, just knowing general pattern is fine..



AAH!



“I FORGET!”


“?”


“THE PLAN! I NEED TO RETURN SOON! SHIT”



trying to run finding the exit, i try to get out


but iskandar stopped me holding my wrist



“wait, before that there's still something you need to know”



what is it again?? make it quick



“dont worry. i have heard about your plan roughly from your friends. you can still made it in three or four days”



so he heard it. but then..



“are you.. fine with it? you know that many will die once i started my plan”



he seems to determined himself



“i have already decided to not involve myself with the surface unless it involves mythical beings or another creature at same level threatening the world. besides..”


“i believe the beastmen indeed deserve better. they shouldn’t receive such a treatment compares to another demi human”



i see


so basically he only cares about goddess


loser



“i got a feeling you just dissed me. but this is important. you need to recover first”


“and i will teach you everything that you need to know. besides..”


you cannot win right now. not in your current state



….



shit


he touched where it hurts



it's true


at my current state, even after reaching transcended i would just move into my own death instead


if i had another strong member to help perhaps it's doable, but i don't have any time to find them



neither friend or gordes is free to helping me in the fight once the plan started. and oo-kun only strong against those which is not transcended because he didn't have any skill


besides..



“i won't allow it”



i won't allow anyone or anybody takes my ”prey”


my target has been decided since the start



the pleasure of killing him, making him despair, angering him, and becoming his sworn “enemy” that he will never ever forgot for his entire lifetime


is a right for me, and me alone



all of the despair, grudge, and hatred


direct it all to me



only then


and after then


that i can feel alive


by feeding their intense emotion right before they died


is a right for me and me alone



……



“seems like you regain your vigor. good”



seemingly happy, iskandar replied



“then, shall i bring you to a place where you can recover?”



hmm?


i got a bad premonition..



….



in front of me


lies a hot spring



“....”



i knew it..



“i made this place myself. it's not as great as the hot spring in japan but its close. in exchange it have a better recovery capabilities and faster… what are you doing?”



i was busy writing something and ignoring him



“list on how to murder you in 100.000 ways, also the list of my grudge that i will definitely take revenge at”



“...”



he looked at me like i was seriously going to do that



well, of course!


i don't have any extra energy to yell or attacking him left, so i will save it until later


i know his protagonist disease is terrible, so wasting time to bitch talk him is useless.


i will kill him definitely next time



*kohon*



“then, feel free to take your time. i will be waiting outside then”



hmm?


strange..


eroge protagonist would usually offer “you're too weak huh? let me help you. ah i will put a blind so i wont see” and then making a various scene like getting slipped and hugging the heroine while naked or something


what are you planning? is it the normal peep? is this place actually exposed into outside fully like that black outside clear inside mirror?



“you looks like you didn't believe me.. should i make a contract to not peep absolutely no matter what? haa.. did you really not trusting me this much?”



of course! like you can be trusted!


but i don't have any time for that, so i’ll let him go



“whatever, just stay here”



he made a disbelief face



“huh? what happened? did i heard it wrong? are you sick?”



noisy


even i know i must recover faster


i don't know how long i must stay to recover, and truthfully i need help washing myself


a little shame is a trivial matter for my ambition!



“i’ll just made sure to pay you back a million times fold so don’t worry”


“ahh i’m glad. it was the usual you..”



…



while i’m taking a bath, i used a swimsuit and letting him washing me


..what? you expect me to fully defenseless against such a dangerous creature?


ha! not a chance! and the chance of my swimsuit slipped is non existent too!


because it was made with a material even stronger than my usual op suit


though because it was for goddess use, some part is getting loose.. i had to modify it previously


though why did you only wear a towel in your important part? i swear if you shown that thing to me..



i’ll make you regret ever being born

i’ll let you die more worse than getting cursed

and i will made every generation of your descendant suffer



while he helped pour the water for me, i got bored and talked nonchalantly



“when are you gonna confess to her?”



bhua!? he got surprised and spilled the water all over me



oi, be careful.


he made such a poor reaction.


stop being so template, will you


regaining his composure, he talked



“thats.. for now, i want to settle my matter with the dragon king first”



he’s running away!


i knew it, this dickless guy


cowaard cowaard, gutless useless



“ahh i get it, i get what are you trying to say! but even i cannot go in to her place easily!”



what do you mean?



“her creator made that place to be completely isolated from outside interference. if she wants you to in it's another matter, getting out is simple too. but getting inside with your own strength is something that even i cannot do”



ahh i see..



“perhaps her children knows something on how to get in. so i was thinking to asked him too if i had a chance”



excuse excuse.. typical typical.. boo boo..



“you're.. really like to put a salt in the wound huh? though i can’t refute that”



hmph


just say i’m being honest



“enough about that, how about you?”



hmm? did you even need to ask?



“ooh? you start it.. you started it ok? don’t regret it then..!”



i got excited and started to sing



“HEAR THE MELODY OF MY DEDICATED LOVE TO MY DEAR AIMI! YOU CANNOT MISS THE PERFORMANCE! IT WILL START IN THREE TWO ONE…!”


“AIMI AIMI AIEMON..!”



he was surprised with my sudden change and slipped


oi, close that disgusting thing away