So about 1.5 years ago I got into reading web novels and since then I have been unable to stop. I mostly read chinese cultivation novels and unfortunately most of them are just so badly written which leads to me jumping between hundreds of novels after dropping it after a few chapters, a few tens of chapters and in some cases they're entertaining enough to last for a few hundred of chapters. Very few have lasted until caught up with translation, hiatus or end of story for me personally but I still very much enjoy the genre and I'm kind of depressed that it's so difficult to find good stories, my search for new novels is getting longer each time. At the same time I feel like I've got these ideas that would make for a much better cultivation novel than what I've read (mostly), taking inspiration from all of them and trying to change it into something that not only works but also makes sense. But at the same time I don't feel like I would qualify as an author, lacking vocabulary & proper writing skills//story telling skills. Now these things can be practiced but I don't know if I'd ever feel the same enjoyment writing a novel as I'd get while reading one, going into it blind and just feel that excitement when you don't know what's going to happen. All of these things just makes me feel depressed, I just want my ideas to come to life, to exist for my enjoyment and not knowing what's going to happen next. Does anybody else have any similar thoughts and feelings, especially towards cultivation novels/xianxia where bad troupes are so common and easily improved upon? Rather than a discussion this is a bit more of a rant, me just venting some steam.