Observing, it's like watching animals in the zoo, I feel strangely detached. (pardon my horrible analogy) Listening or talking?
(I know what you mean.) Listening - sometimes when you listen very attentive you may find very inspiring things... Reincarnation or permanent disintegration?
Anti-hero, hated savior sounds like it'd wear me down. Sounds like working in customer service. Spoiler "Hi, how are you today? " "I DON'T WANT THE MEMBERSHIP"/"TWO FOR LUNCH"/"BOOTH" "... No problem." Always over-dressed or always under-dressed for an occasion?